What have i gotten into?

[Sox Man]

Hey guys. I'm still relatively new to these forums. If this sounds like I'm venting or something, I apologize.

Here's my situation. I've gotten involved with a separated woman, whose divorce is in the process as we speak. She moved about 600 miles from her ex and she's insured me he's out to the picture.

I've always thought she was attractive, and we would laugh and cut up together at work (yes she works on my hospital floor, but we're on different schedules, and we don't see each other that much at work). Until recently, that was about it. For the past few months, we started going out for drinks, played golf and started running together. One night at dinner she asked me: "are you gonna fall in love with me?" I wasn't dumb enough to answer. That same evening, I walked her to her car, and she was trembling when I hugged her, and she couldn't even get her keys in the car. After this night, we went out numerous times. Now fast forward a few weeks and I went out of town for 4 days. The day I got back, she had me over to grill out and have some drinks. We watched a movie on her couch. I tried to put my arm around her and she pushed it away. Then she got up to go the bathroom and she pulled it around me this time. Well, one thing led to another and I kissed her. After the kiss we started "fooling around" and she took me upstairs. We never actually had sex because I didn't have protection. She asked me to stay over, but I had to work the next day, so I declined. The next day we talked about our relationship and I was pleased where things were headed.

Now here's where things get confusing. One night at a work party, we decided to not draw a lot of attention to each other. She left earlier than me because she had worked that day, but I didn't. She got home and sent me a picture of a beer she had at home that we had both ordered but they were out of. She did something similar when she was at the beach with her girlfriends. She sent me a picture of the sunset. The next day, she texted me and wanted me to go running with her and then go out for breakfast. we had breakfast and I tried to kiss her in the parking lot, and she wouldn't let me. We texted back and forth throughout the weekend and we saw each other monday at work and she was very flirty. She asked me to go with her and her girlfriends for beer after work and I said no. She counter offered for the next night and I said ok. We went to dinner, but some of her other friends had texted her to come somewhere else. I told her I wanted it to be just the 2 of us, and she said ok. We left there and went to somewhere quieter for desert and more drinks. She took me back to my car, and when I got out she said " You want to kiss me don't you?" And I said "Yes, can I?" and She replies " I guess so." So I did. The next day she left for 10 days vacation back home. She texted me to let me know she made it back ok. Then I didn't hear from her for 3 days, then she sent me a pic message of the beach, then a message about how far she ran and another about her new golf club. We've texted some since then, but not nearly as much as when she's in town. Last night she commented on my Facebook status, which is odd because she's weird about people at work talking about own relationship.The comment wasn't really a comment, more like something from a text message.

I just wish I knew what's going on in her head. She told me she was "damaged goods" and doesn't want to hurt me, but i want her so bad. Is her decrease in communication something to be concerned about or is it cause she's back home? She did tell me her dog was her and her ex's and she had to drop it off for a while. Is this just a time to clear her head, or should I just let this one go? I've gotten so many mixed signals. If there is any possibility of this working out in the future, I don't want to give up on it, but at the same time, I don't want to get hurt either.

Should I try and contact her when she's back in town or let her do the contacting? She gets back Sunday. I'm working Sunday and Monday and then I leave for vacation Tuesday. She has something for me that I asked her to get me while she was home. Can this be my excuse to see her or not?

Please guys. I need some advice. She's my best friend and I don't want to lose that either. Should we have the talk, or just let time away do it's thing and see where things stand in a couple of weeks.

[Philosoraptor]

She is either not interested in anything serious with you or she's just not ready for anything and still hung up on the ex. Honestly this reads to be something that ends in pain one way or another.