Mariana345 Posted July 3, 2012 Posted July 3, 2012 Where should I start? We were together for almost 5 years (8/8), but we liked each other years before, in high school, we dated like two months, but we were children back then. You find me later and we still had feelings for each other, so we started dating. It was magic, we thought we were soul mates, and the first years were amazing. Then the problems started. Must of them were jealousy (but remember how she did liked you? I was not wrong in that ) and that lead to insecurity. I know that you tried to make me feel comfortable and that's why you separate from that friend of yours. But I still have issues with that, for a few years. We made it work somehow, but I know now that you regreted this the entire time. We are different, I told you that several times, but you said that you didn't care, that you would follow me whenever I'll go. But you didn't really meant it, cause you never let me go anywhere. And I regreted to let you do that to me, the entire time. We settled with that, and continue, but still we have fights. We both had resentments about what we give up and let that enter the relationship. We loved each other, said that every day, and that we were going to be together forever, even when we fought. So I believed that even in bad terms, we can make this work for the rest of our lives. Then something change inside you. A few months ago you just start to change with me, you were being a little rude to me... it was hard for both of us. I did the same things that I was doing for the past years, but now, that bothered you a lot. I was thinking about breaking up too, but I wanted to believe that we could fix it, like always... For some reason, you didn't believe that. I was assuming the guilt by myself, but later I found out that you were seeing someone... You went to the movies, paid 2 tickets the day before you broke up with me... and you lied about it (told me you went with your friend to buy some cellphone accesories) so, you probably weren't doing something good... If you had to lie. Now I know why you didn't care when I cried, and begged you... Still is hard to believe that, but there is no other reason to me... My heart is broken, just one week before you tried to fix the relationship and all of the sudden, you are tired, resentful and don't feel the same way towards me... What else can I think? I still have feelings for you, I was going to spend the rest of my life with you, and even built my life around you, wasting 5 years, leaving aside my dreams, all for nothing. So, I still love you, but... this is the end. One month later is really the end to me. I wanted you back so dearly, I could have given anything to make this work... before I figured out things. We were so much in love... and is destroyed, now for good... And I still can't believe it...
Author Mariana345 Posted July 3, 2012 Author Posted July 3, 2012 The break up was weird... At first you said that you didn't want to make a rash decision. That maybe you needed some time apart. I told you that being apart wouldn't solve anything, that we need to do something about it or just break up... I never thought that you would choose the breakup. We cried, you told me that you didn't feel the same way, that you have resentments towards me for all the fights and problems. That you didn't want to do anything anymore, there was nothing else to do. That you were no longer able to continue. That you didn't want to eat, or play, or nothing. That you wanted to know if you could miss me again, if you could feel the same way. Then that I didn't need you, that I'm strong, that we aren't compatible, that you want a simple life and you couldn't see yourself in my dreams. That I didn't know what I want. We kept crying, we hug each other, while I was beggin you to gave me another chance, a chance to change. You told me that I was fine, that I didn't need to change. I asked you If you still care/like me (I didn't dare to ask for love) and you said yes. But that you couldn't live that way, that affection wasn't enough anymore. At the end I even dare to ask what if I found out that was you what I wanted, and you answer me that you'll be there (but I didn't believe you), just that you were broken. Before I left I told you that I was going to wait for you... But you told me that you weren't sure to be able to return.
Author Mariana345 Posted July 3, 2012 Author Posted July 3, 2012 One month has passed by, and you went out to partys, every weekend. You seemed fine in facebook, before I deleted you. I even spy on you a little... and that's when I found out that you were going to the movies, even the day after we broke up, paying those two tickets, the same as when you dated me. When I asked you something you answer me, briefly and sometimes coldly. I just sent you 3 emails, you just answered 1, because that was the one that needed answer. When I found out I called you to your cellphone, and you always answered, you even agreed to met me to return my stuff... That day I just said hello, took my stuff, thanked you and left... Sometimes I wish I had said more, but I know that you were seeing someone else, so... I didn't. Yeah, I didn't wait to much... because there was nothing to wait for... When I deleted you from facebook you blocked me a couple of days... then unblocked, don't know why. After I ask for my stuff you asked for your money (that you once told me you didn't wanted) so, there is some kind of response from you, but not the one that was needed... Now I think is too late for anything. Your mom called me couple of times, since you didn't tell her anything about us. She told me that you were in bad mood those two first weeks (the last time I talked with her) what made me think that you weren't that good without me and that you may come back... But you didn't. And you won't, I know that now...
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