cheated?

[doityourself]

im 21 years old i was dating the girl of my dreams for over a year and a hafe the last 4 mounths we bing fighting on egy an i got week i texted one of my exs an well was kinda haven text sex the my girl found my phone an seen them all we brock up that day we tryed bing freinds it was hard for me i love her like crazy i know she loved me like crazy an 3 days b4 we brock up her anty her bigest saport in her life passed sho he emoshens were shut off k back to it i would get mad we end up not bing freinds this an that on an off for like a week she when out an party with some freinds sleped with a guy she met will we wer dating she told me she wanted to hav sex with him when she first met him well that hurt that the second part that hurt it was my 21st b-day in may got a text from her happy b-day then a nother text i got drunk had unprotected sex with him it pritty muched killed me i blow up an thats were i realy mest up after talken to her for a week every thing was ok agen an i was homeless so she let me sleep in her car for a week then she moved 3 hours away so i got a nother place to say she cam back to the city for the night an when home with a random guy he was driven drunk an it scared me edmonton is well known for the rapes i got mad an snaped but after a week with out talken to her i had time to think clear me head i know what i did was rong i shount of done it it kills me for doing it an kills me even more for how muched it hurt her we r some what freinds right now i want to gane the trust back i want to show her the guy she fell in love with i know she still loves me becz shes the kind of girl if u hurt her an she dont care about u ur out of her life she mit not love me but she cares still i just want to know what should i do i need the help to get back in to her heart im not good with words or talken to girls im shy an shes the one i want an i am willing to do any thing to get what i lost back an even make it better then b for

 

so if u can help i would realy apresheat it thank u