Mariana345 Posted July 1, 2012 Posted July 1, 2012 My EX bf broke up with me 4 weeks ago. In the beginning I thought we can go through this and get back together. We didn't. He slowly pulled me out of his life but still I didn't give up. Wanted to use NC to bring him back, but didn't work. I know is still less than a month but I thought that our problems weren't that bad. Now he looked for his best female friend wich he lose contact 3 years ago because she liked him and we almost broke up that time, so that tells me he really haven't considered getting back to me. So, from now on I'm moving on. I waited him for 4 weeks, we were together almost 5 years and that doesn't mind anything to him now, so It shouldn't mean anything to me either. So I'm letting go my hopes, my dreams with him, and my love for him, because he didn't want it. I packed his stuff in a box, all the gifts that he give me, all the details, all the cards... It was really overwhelming, heartbreaking but I feel good now. I cried and now I feel kind of relieved. I want to fulfill my dreams now that he is not holding me back, I'm scared, because I feel I'm all alone, but I need to surpass that feeling, otherwise nothing could start, and I need a new start... I may feel bad again sometime in the next days, so when that happens I'll come back to this post and relieve the pain by writing and reading all the posts that you may leave for me
Author Mariana345 Posted July 1, 2012 Author Posted July 1, 2012 I want so badly to see his facebook page, but at the same time I'm sooooo scared!! I don't want to see him happy withouth me, and he with that "friend" of his... I know that he even lie to me before he broke up with me... How didn't I see the signals?!! I want revenge, I want him to suffer... And sometimes I want him back... hahahaha, maybe if he came back he's going to suffer... by being with me
Author Mariana345 Posted July 2, 2012 Author Posted July 2, 2012 What the hell I am doing? I still want him back? Despite all this weeks, all those things that he did... All the pain, and the lies, and the fact that I won't trust him anymore??!! OMG!!! for what purpose I want him back? We can't be together anymore... we just can't
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