Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Indifference sucks. When we broke up last year I had a rage in me that consumed me to make a difference and got her back. Now it seems like because of breaking NC, though not really being friends, I no longer have anger about her breaking up with me. I feel total indifference but at the same time suffering at my pathetic quality of life. They say to write what you like about yourself. ive ****ed my life up so much, theres nothing. Im not even motivated to feel like changing.
TaraMaiden Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Indifference sucks. When we broke up last year I had a rage in me that consumed me to make a difference and got her back. Now it seems like because of breaking NC, though not really being friends, I no longer have anger about her breaking up with me. I feel total indifference but at the same time suffering at my pathetic quality of life. They say to write what you like about yourself. ive ****ed my life up so much, theres nothing. Im not even motivated to feel like changing. You're suffering from Depression. see a doctor, but for referral to a counsellor, not for medication.
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 No im not. We got back last year, and almost a year later to the day she broke up with me. Read my previous posts.
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 It feels like the usual grieving process that happens for me has been super accelerated. She never wanted me, I never wanted her eventuallly. She came crawling back, called me her white knight in shining armour. I effectively became that. Then despite putting up with her bad behaviour she broke up with me! Moved on pretty damn rapidly. The thing is I went from anger, to relief, to sobbing like a bitch, to being bummed out + depressed at the same time in like not even 3 days.
TaraMaiden Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 So... if you're over her to the point of indifference, then why are you so glum, unmotivated, despondent and 'suffering at your pathetic quality of life'...? sounds pretty down to me... Why do you believe you're NOT depressed?
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 Because ive been trying to talk to girls, and my game is nowhere near the level it used to be. I quit my MMA because of her, to get her life on track but I dont even feel motivated to pick it back up. Im not making as much $$ as I used to anymore playing poker. My mind just feels unresponsive and damaged and not able to process thoughts. However, Ive been through depression before and usually Im able to pick my thoughts back up through mental self talk. ive never had to see a doctor or take meds, and ive `suffered from it since I was 13 or so. Ive always pulled out always
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 They say to get over an ex one step is to look at your life and write what you like about you...Ive lost so much of my previous life that I just simply cannot identify anything that I like about myself anymore.
whoknows11 Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Im going through exact same thing as you. Depressed, miserable, trying to fix what i believed was wrong. Ex and i still argue at times. Still not together. No job now, seeing a counselor and had to step out of my gym as well cause of her. My mind wasnt there also. I dont really have friends anymore. Ive been taking nightquil constantly to knock me out so i stop thinking.
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 Can I from anyone get an honest analysis of my dating profile which includes pictures and description. Im not fishing for compliments, but really I always cant help but feel I give off a bit of a creepy vibe and I would saw off my left nut to just know how Im being percieved. If one person or two person dont like me thats fine, but it just seems to be a tidal wave of everyone.
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 Peagle87 Soccer, Poker, MMA, fishing, VW, travelling
whoknows11 Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Peagle87 Soccer, Poker, MMA, fishing, VW, travelling Im a guy so im not gonna rate you or anything. But you do look like gsp a bit
xpaperxcutx Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Maybe you just want to sit at home and eat potato chips gain a vut belly and then nump into your ex and see that she's with someone else. Do something just don't wallow. The worst thing that can happen is feeling sorry for yourself and letting exes osee you so.
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 What difference is there really between a counsellor though and the LS community. Educated professionals versus real life experiences on the community from hundreds of members. Especially since Im not going to be taking medication Admitedelly it may be helpful, but why would you think Im depressed
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 Thats the thing, its not so much wallowing...I defintely was wallowing about two days ago but today I tried to play poker online ( a secondary source of income) and my brain simply cannot and will not focus. Im afraid that with my brain sputtering like this I wont be able to finish school, make money, gain new friends, reestablish old friends, and get my body fixed.
whoknows11 Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Maybe you just want to sit at home and eat potato chips gain a vut belly and then nump into your ex and see that she's with someone else. Do something just don't wallow. The worst thing that can happen is feeling sorry for yourself and letting exes osee you so. Thats the thing, its not so much wallowing...I defintely was wallowing about two days ago but today I tried to play poker online ( a secondary source of income) and my brain simply cannot and will not focus. Im afraid that with my brain sputtering like this I wont be able to finish school, make money, gain new friends, reestablish old friends, and get my body fixed. Its anxiety, your situation consumed you. Still is. Your still feeling the effects from the breakup. Everything your saying is common signs of depression. Especially loss of focus/intrest. Take it from me. I used to play chess alot, football, train mma, play ps3,things like that. Now i dont do anything. Lost my focus along with intrest. Schools starting soon for me as well and im worried that im not going to snap out of it.
TaraMaiden Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Im a guy so im not gonna rate you or anything. But you do look like gsp a bit what is 'gsp'...?
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 Georges St Pierre. One of the better welterweight UFC fighters out there, and fairly handsome (no hom0)
whoknows11 Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Georges St Pierre. One of the better welterweight UFC fighters out there, and fairly handsome (no hom0) The greatest welterweight right now. Has been for a while. Unless condt wins.
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 Hmm..well...even if what you say is true, isnt it better for me to conviently be better able to discuss my situatuion here on LS. I mean, I have thought of seeing a counsellor at my school but I dont know.
TaraMaiden Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 What difference is there really between a counsellor though and the LS community. Years of formative training, one-to-one discussion, sensible measure of progress, interaction with a person who can empathise though presence, not opinion. Educated professionals versus real life experiences on the community from hundreds of members. some of whom are in pain, embittered, and worse off than you. For example, an alcoholic shouldn't seek advice form an alcoholic.... Especially since Im not going to be taking medication Admitedelly it may be helpful, but why would you think Im depressed because to everyone but you, it stands out a mile. And if this is something you can trace back historically in your life, the problem has been progressively escalating until now, it's even gotten your attention. This is a trait that needs a professional's overview....
whoknows11 Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 Hmm..well...even if what you say is true, isnt it better for me to conviently be better able to discuss my situatuion here on LS. I mean, I have thought of seeing a counsellor at my school but I dont know. You can. Theres no harm in it at all. Thats why you signed up isnt it? To vent. It feels great to and get peoples opinion out of it.
Author Peagle87 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 I guess..Im just venting more than anything that I let her have another chance, it ****ed me up, and I became so dependent that I let all the other qualities in my life shrink. I remember when i FIRST met her...i got her because I was in a really happy place in my life. Why. I cant really remember. But i was much much happier, and had recovered from a severeally damaging woman with alcoholic tendencies and BPD. That relationship did a lot more damage to me.
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