goldengirl11 Posted June 30, 2012 Posted June 30, 2012 (edited) I so want to move on from this experience, but I think what happened is yest had an interview at our old workplace (Hampton Court) where we met before we later down the line i.e a few years later started seeing each other, when tbh I ended up feeling used and a fill-in until the next girl caught his eye who he then had a relationship with instead of me. I can't help feeling that it started up tho because we hadn't seen each other in a month (mainly my fault at the time), when he started putting me on the backburner i.e texting regularly but not suggesting to meet. Yet, he was still keen to keep me on a string, until things had developed with the other girl. He also made suggestions back then that I should try this and that on my own first, yet all I wanted to do was actually just have sex with him not keep fantasising, whilst he was getting it elsewhere. I have just broken it off with someone I wasn't feeling it with and tbh, it just didn't compare to my feelings for my ex, who even tho has treated me like s**t, still have strong feelings for. I am also still pathetically hoping he will come back. Think going to HC again yest (after a bad interview) made my feelings raw-like again, as things were yet to happen with him when we worked there last. Unless I lose weight tho I would probably fear he would look elsewhere anyway. Although would only be interested if it was exclusive next time. Rant over. P.S. I recall he has had a bit of history with GIGS. He's in his late twenties and I'm in my early thirties. Edited June 30, 2012 by goldengirl11
Author goldengirl11 Posted June 30, 2012 Author Posted June 30, 2012 (edited) Also, I think what gets me, is the fact that he didn't get 'in' the time we attempted penetrative sex and that we then didn't see each other in a month (before he started dating someone else), when I can't help feeling that this likely made him sexually frustrated which I assume may have encouraged things to happen with the other girl (probably at day college), which simply put made him move on, until they briefly broke up (we e-mailed only then), before he disappeared again. Apart from contact in the new year. I KNOW I MUST MOVE ON. Am just feeling a failure I suppose and is so hard (it would appear) to find a good match i.e to be with someone who I have mutual feelings with. Edited June 30, 2012 by goldengirl11
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