joyce14brown Posted June 28, 2012 Posted June 28, 2012 Well, it goes down this way. Last time. But to me this time it was worse... He's getting a divorce... And I believe it's real. I didn't find out until today. But he's such a bastard he can't understand all that I've gone through and he's not been of much help. I told his wife and his friends and family we've been together 2 years and was pregnant with 2 of his kids. He's kept me a secret so long and it was fine. But today I got bad new from my dr. I've been bleeding all weeks. Like spotting like last time only it's a lot earlier. On the u/s, it showed no heartbeat and for some weird reason they said it was 6 weeks and 2 days old. Which made me 8 weeks and 2 days which is 2 further than my actual period. Anyhow the whole day has been rotten I couldn't do anything all day. In a way ove blamed him for all this. It's like he willed it away.. We've had two children just like his wife and he does. He's wanted me to kill both of them. And each time they end up leaving me. And he'll say I have so much of my future ahead of me to just move on and he always gets his way with everything. I got tired of that. It's like him and our child same place same scenario same ending. I'm a mess and he is just to move on as if it never happened. I always feel I need him because that's all I have left of them... Plus everyone judges me. And I'm so submerged in the closet. Idk what else to do. Every time he does this and says he'll make it up to me. But it's never enough. Well anyway I wasn't happy with him to begin with but right after I got out of the clinic I got his text saying. He made a huge decision but he's willing to live with it. He decided to file for divorce and they're done. It was what I wanted hear so much there past weeks. If last week I would've heard that I'd have been over the moon about it... And I was happy until. He said he needed me to be strong... That he sees a future with me. But what's most of all been on his mind was my pregnancy. He'd dealt with it with his wife and seen how much of a tough toll it took on their marriage. That he'd need to be sure that I'd not have 'it' our baby... I had said early this week I didn't think I'd have the baby but I meant I felt I was mcing. Anyway he goes on to say he needs me to have on for us to go forward into a now monogamous relationship. Well I told him to kiss my ass and that escalated... So I went his house and I lost it overdid it. But even though I'm no longer pregnant that I didn't want to see his face ever. That I hoped he'd drop dead... It got so bad he had to call to have me removed. But I just hate him for everything. He sometimesmakes my life worth living and other timesits a ****ing living hell... So I was really upset at everything... Well we sexted at times. And I know it was childish but I just wanted to get him back so I exposed him the photos the vid the money our kids our 2 year relationship everything out there everyone who matters to him to see. I feel like he deserves to feel what he's done to me... How unhelpful he's been. But I feel bad for it I earned so much to know his secrets and trust just to betray him but he said he'd be there for me and he wasn't... He treated almost the same as last time if not worst trying to play on my feeings for him to make me feel pressured more than before he disgust me... And I am so consumed with hate I can't even focus on the losses. It's not fair this is where he's led me when I'd do anyhing for him so shortly before...
stillafool Posted June 28, 2012 Posted June 28, 2012 This man betrayed his wife and kids to have an affair with you. He took a vow to be faithful to her in front of God and everyone else and didn't do it. Why do you think he would be different with you? I guess the reason he says:rolleyes: he is getting a divorce is because now that his wife knows about the affair she doesn't want his sorry arse anymore. Don't be surprised if he ends up not going through with it if she decides to forgive him. I'm sorry about the loss of your baby and I have to ask did you guys use birth control and it failed? Does he provide financial support for your other kids? I hope he at least does that with you. You have wasted years on this man and for what?
Author joyce14brown Posted June 28, 2012 Author Posted June 28, 2012 we used bc and I meant I lost the 2 kids I had with him. This one and last one.... he actually decided on the divorce before I told everybody about it. It really doesn't matter I'm done with him... She's actually abusive towards him. So while I wasn't... But it doesn't matter I'm not with him anymore... No regrets with that...
Samilia Posted June 28, 2012 Posted June 28, 2012 I would make sure your kids are provided for. Then I would find myself someone who wants to be with me full time and doesn't lie. It must be hard to be the other woman, don't get me wrong, but the way your story started wasn't the best way to start something. Get back on your feet and get into a healthy relationship.
Author joyce14brown Posted June 28, 2012 Author Posted June 28, 2012 I meant children from the mcs... Well yea I'm ready to start over...
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