Anna84 Posted June 23, 2012 Posted June 23, 2012 Hey-o, last time I posted here must have been last year November/December. I was complaining about being lovesick over my ex of two years; we split up in september '11 (I'm too internet-ignorant/lazy to retrace that last post and link it). January this year I was about to embark on a new adventure; move to another country to study there. I still hadn't recovered completely from the break up. What made it worse was that my ex would be in the same country at the same time, doing the same thing. This would be the first time in our lives that we would live so close to one another. Inevitably, the first week of my arrival we started sending each other emails. What also happened, was something entirely unexpected (but also perhaps cliche in a way) The first week, I had a click with someone. I wasn't even over my ex yet properly, and looking forward to the time where I could just be happy with me, lead a happy single life, something I'd never done before. But here I was being chased by this guy who was completely not my type, had habits that disgusted me (get pished non-stop), but whom I altogether felt very strongly connected and attracted to (talents, personality) and very safe with. Within 2 weeks I'd forgotten about my ex, something I could've never imagined. Me and this guy very, very slowly but gradually started grwowing closer together, and finally the last month of my stay (half May) we admitted to each other that we fancied each other. However, a comitted relationship was not in the cards. We were intimate with each other, he would be very, very sweet and tender, we'd cook for each other, spend time with each other, and I fell for him hard (something that I wanted to avoid at all costs). Ultimately, I can say that I love him more than I ever loved my ex, and I miss him so much that I've woken up every single night dazed and confused not knowing where I am, and wondering why the hell he's not lying next to me. It takes me about a minute or 2 before reality hits me and I start to become aware of my surroundings..It's really quite an odd experience. It all went tits up though, we both left at the same day, both returned to our own country and I've not heard from him since despite Facebook/email. I have no idea what I meant to him and it was all kept so very vague. Anyway, I suppose what I want to say is that life can change so suddenly and unexpectedly. I could've never foreseen that my heart would open up to someone so soon and that I'd be in the same situation as last year but with a different person. And yeah, I suppose this is just a vent.
LovelyDaze Posted June 23, 2012 Posted June 23, 2012 Do you think the new relationship happened too fast or that you still had lingering feelings for your ex that got in the way of things? Actually glad that you did just prove that after an ex, you DO find love again. It happened for me despite my doubts.
Author Anna84 Posted June 24, 2012 Author Posted June 24, 2012 Hey.. I'd been dealing with the breakup for 5 months and I don't think the next one was a rebound as my feelings are so strong. If it had been me, I would have gone for it 100%, but it just wasn't mutual. At this moment I really do NOT feel like having a relationship, and I was happy being single back then. However, I do not seem to have a choice when love decides to drop around so the last case would've proven to be an exception. When you love someone, I suppose you're ready for them (or at least I am). If there's anything I can learn from this, indeed, it's that love rcurs........
goldengirl11 Posted June 25, 2012 Posted June 25, 2012 Hey-o, last time I posted here must have been last year November/December. I was complaining about being lovesick over my ex of two years; we split up in september '11 (I'm too internet-ignorant/lazy to retrace that last post and link it). January this year I was about to embark on a new adventure; move to another country to study there. I still hadn't recovered completely from the break up. What made it worse was that my ex would be in the same country at the same time, doing the same thing. This would be the first time in our lives that we would live so close to one another. Inevitably, the first week of my arrival we started sending each other emails. What also happened, was something entirely unexpected (but also perhaps cliche in a way) The first week, I had a click with someone. I wasn't even over my ex yet properly, and looking forward to the time where I could just be happy with me, lead a happy single life, something I'd never done before. But here I was being chased by this guy who was completely not my type, had habits that disgusted me (get pished non-stop), but whom I altogether felt very strongly connected and attracted to (talents, personality) and very safe with. Within 2 weeks I'd forgotten about my ex, something I could've never imagined. Me and this guy very, very slowly but gradually started grwowing closer together, and finally the last month of my stay (half May) we admitted to each other that we fancied each other. However, a comitted relationship was not in the cards. We were intimate with each other, he would be very, very sweet and tender, we'd cook for each other, spend time with each other, and I fell for him hard (something that I wanted to avoid at all costs). Ultimately, I can say that I love him more than I ever loved my ex, and I miss him so much that I've woken up every single night dazed and confused not knowing where I am, and wondering why the hell he's not lying next to me. It takes me about a minute or 2 before reality hits me and I start to become aware of my surroundings..It's really quite an odd experience. It all went tits up though, we both left at the same day, both returned to our own country and I've not heard from him since despite Facebook/email. I have no idea what I meant to him and it was all kept so very vague. Anyway, I suppose what I want to say is that life can change so suddenly and unexpectedly. I could've never foreseen that my heart would open up to someone so soon and that I'd be in the same situation as last year but with a different person. And yeah, I suppose this is just a vent. Thanks for the positive insight. Although at the same time it confirmed how much my ex/FWB may have moved on by now. :-/
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