iEmly Posted June 22, 2012 Posted June 22, 2012 i just wanted to share my thoughts on here so basically he broke up with me after 6 years via phone during a heated argument and refused to discuss it or show any remorse. the first week of the break up was absolute torture seriously, i couldn't stop texting him and trying to get in touch to the point where it made me feel like i was a crazy stalker. i was so emotional, and it didn't help that the only responses i received where either 'stop effing texting me' or 'eff off' which stung. i clung on to the hope that he would change his mind and want me back and i felt like i didn't want to give up on the relationship. so after the first week i came to the realization that it would probably hurt more to carry on contact than to not contact atall, so i made my decision to just stop. and it honestly feels like i haven't talked to him in such a long time even though in reality its only been a couple of days. but in that time i've felt so much better, like i've been getting on with my own thing, enjoying my friends and just keeping busy without him. obviously i have bad days, bad times, especially in the evening, but then i think what do i even have to say? what would be the point in saying that? do i really just want to reopen wounds and hear him tell me to just get lost again? i feel like i want to let him know that i'm happy or having a good time but he doesn't need to know that.. it makes me feel good to be back in control to a certain extent my family think he'll come back to me, but i'm not so sure. i'm at the point now where although it is still fresh, i can't see it working out and the way i was treated throughout the break up is irreversible. obviously this makes me sad, but i can now see 'light at the end of the tunnel'. it was my first real relationship so i couldn't help feeling like i would never find someone with the same connection we had but now i'm just like yeah, whatever.
january2011 Posted June 23, 2012 Posted June 23, 2012 You're a better and stronger woman than me. After two weeks, I'd still be in shock. I agree with you that the way he treated you during the break up was pretty shoddy. Perhaps, one day you will forgive him, but that day is probably a long way off. Keep taking care of yourself and mantaining no-contact - for all the reasons that you stated. Keep heading towards that light.
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