confused2385 Posted June 21, 2012 Posted June 21, 2012 (edited) Well I went and did it. Last night sent her a text telling her "come see me. Would love to see you and thinking of you" she replied with I can't I have the dogs to which I said well do you want to see me and she said come over then...I did. Pulled up and there was a different car in the drive way. Asked her about it and said it was the other guys. I immediately thought he was there and what the hell is she trying to do. Ends up she used his car to get home as he lives 30 minutes away. Anyways we talked a little, but not about much. Basically she misses me, check all my social media rights me endless messages and texts everyday just to delete them before sending them. We wound up staying up skinny dipping she was trying on lingerie and a ton of sex all night and this morning. Snuggled me all night laid on my chest and just caught up all morning laughing, smiling enjoying each other without problem. I eventually told her I needed to go as I was 3 hours late to work to which we kind of just stared at each other not knowing what to do her saying this is the hard part. I kissed her on the forehead and told her this is sad that it;s probably the last time we'll talk or see each other and then she hugged me and wouldn't let go. Kept reaching in for a kiss and I was resisting and only gave her peck compared to our usually strong hard and passionate kiss(which I wish* would have). She then Began crying profusely I tried to be strong, but said it doesn't feel right. Hold back your tears we have already spilled them and that she will be fine. She will make someone happy one day if not already and she said she isn't. Continued reminiscing, but i realized it was futile and wanted to put off a different front so finally I told her I better go and walked to the door said see ya later opened the door left and didn't look back. I know it's my fault for doing this and breaking my 9 days of NC, but now it;s even more confusing as the feelings are still there, but obviously she is in a relationship with this other guy, but now she even just cheated on him again with me. I don't know what to do. It's all so confusing and for some reason I texted her saying that "it just feels wrong and empty without her because it's so right and good when we're together. It feels like the wrong decision" She has not responded... Obviously I know I need to go NC i know that, but any insight to this as it's eating me up and I just want her as we mesh so well, but she has hurt me numerous times. Why must it be so complicated? Edited June 21, 2012 by confused2385
flitzanu Posted June 21, 2012 Posted June 21, 2012 sweet, so now she's banging you and another guy. maybe you can take turns or work out a schedule of visitation? 1
skyisfalling Posted June 21, 2012 Posted June 21, 2012 sweet, so now she's banging you and another guy. maybe you can take turns or work out a schedule of visitation? ouch! haha sorry confused, I couldn't help but laugh at that. please dont resort yourself to this, you've hit rock bottom. Its time to pick yourself up and go NC. NC NC NC NC! Absolute NC! This woman has NO boundaries, NO MORALS, NO conscience. You're better than this.. walk away. NC! NOW! Or I'm going to go over there and hit you with my le creuset frying pan, and that iron is heavy as hell. 1
Phanpooh Posted June 21, 2012 Posted June 21, 2012 At least you dun have to pay, real man dun pay for sex, oh wait, you paid her your attention and also your self-respect? that why she cheated on you and had accident sex with you, goodluck PS: blame on me if you want but if it could help, i could rude more
Gulf-Delta Posted June 22, 2012 Posted June 22, 2012 You made a mistake. Your heart was weak, you needed to get this out of your system. Now that you have, don't look back, don't do it again. Don't dwell on this mistake. Accept it happened, and look forward.
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