headsashed Posted June 21, 2012 Posted June 21, 2012 I know i said i was having some time off the internet etc but today ive been on to check my emails so it thought id drop by and let those that have followed my story know im doing. Its been around 3 weeks since my last post and ive done everything in my power to move on with my life and i can honestly say im feeling a touch better. I have now started working again,i have my driving test booked and ive just had a new tattoo done to cover the scars on my arm. Ofcourse i still think about the ex but its not 24/7 and i still have the odd dream,im coping pretty well if im being honest. It was my mother that actually put me on the straight and narrow,she said 1 sentence to me,your the adult in this relationship,act like 1. And so i have been,ive took every posotive step towards recovery,ofcourse ive still some way to go but im taking the right steps now. There has been 1 altercation with the ex,i was out watching the england game with my friends in town,the ex and her friends was in town too,i never knew she was going out. I saw her in 2 pubs,1st 1 me and her friend said hello and my ex actually said something nasty to me,so i walked away,basically the same happend in the next pub,i just walked away,she hated it and her friend wanted to start a fight with my friends gf,i acted like an adult and walked away,ofcourse i was angry but i didnt let it show and i just went home,the ex then txt me saying f off and leave her alone,lol,i didnt even bother her. This was a week ago,a few days ago i found out that her and 1 friend have been txting each other for a few weeks and had arranged to meet that night in town,btw,this friend was supposed to be out with me and my other friends,he never went out. He is no longer my friend lol,i think its wrong what those 2 were doing but it goes to show she doesnt care and he was never really a friend. Thats the only time ive seen the ex in weeks,and i just walked away,was so easy too. Its been 5 weeks since the BU and i can feel my life turning around slowly,for the better. 1
january2011 Posted June 21, 2012 Posted June 21, 2012 Thanks for coming back to post your progress. Well done on getting back into work, booking your driving test and walking away from your ex's attempt at trying to upset you. Keep up the good work!
Author headsashed Posted June 21, 2012 Author Posted June 21, 2012 thankyou,its been hard ill admit that,it still is,ive had many urges to contact her but i kept strong and didnt,ive seen her drive past my house a few times too when she finishes work (she never drives this way) and i was tempted to ask her why she does it,but i never did. I realised i deserve better,as each day passes i will get stronger and stronger. Ill keep visiting as often as i can and let you all know how im doing. I will admit 1 thing though,seeing her that night in town did bring my feelings back up,but i didnt bite or anything.
favoritepills Posted June 22, 2012 Posted June 22, 2012 Congratulations on your progress! That's really inspiring, and I'm glad you're able to be the mature one in the aftermath. You are WAY better off without this loser girl.
Author headsashed Posted June 22, 2012 Author Posted June 22, 2012 Congratulations on your progress! That's really inspiring, and I'm glad you're able to be the mature one in the aftermath. You are WAY better off without this loser girl. Thankyou,im trying my best to move on,im sure theres more ups and downs to come too but im prepared for them and im prepared to ignore any games she plays if she ever does. I know shes had her friends check up on me and she also spoke to 1 of my friends,she told him how much she is over me and hasnt loved me for a long time and i also use bad chat up lines,w t f? lol..I never let it bother me because SHE IS NOT WORTH MY TIME.
Author headsashed Posted June 25, 2012 Author Posted June 25, 2012 Thought i would keep this in the same thread,much cleaner that way lol. I suppose im just having an off day,they are getting less and less btw,thats a good thing i know. I dunno what made me feel a little crappy today because ive been carrying on my daily routine,hard at work etc. I think maybe its because when i got home last night after the england game i saw my ex drive past my house,id been home literally 2 minutes and was just taking my dog out,about 2 hour later i took the dog in my front garden for a pee lol before i went to bed and she drove back past my house. No idea why she was driving past at that time,suppose it just played on my mind a bit. As much as ive done well for myself these past few weeks,as in working again,driving test booked,tattoo done etc the only thing that will keep popping up is the ex driving past,we live on the same damn street,even though its about 15 mins walk. Ive not spoke to her for a while and thats when i feel ok,but seeing her just driving past my house sets me back a little bit. I know im doing everything right and these feelings will come and go. Before anyone suggests it,i dont think she is stalking me lol,our street leads into town and her friends house and i dont expect her to change route just so i cant see her.
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