SushiOji Posted June 18, 2012 Posted June 18, 2012 I cheated on my ex and expressed how remorseful I was and I how I would never do it again. We tried to work it out for a month but she was still very hurt by what I did and ended up breaking it off despite how much effort I put into trying to make it work. She is dating another man but still tells people that she is single. Her mom loves me still despite what I've done and still wants us together. My ex asks mutual friends how I am doing and I decided to do NC because I am so confused as to what to do since I am the one that screwed up and I just think that she will just never get over what I did and come back to me that there is no point in me trying to push her away anymore or to get hurt anymore if I try to go after her again. She still contacts me and asks how I am and even invited me to dinner with friends last week in which I acted like myself and kept my distance from her. I still want to be with her so much but at this point I don't know what is the best route to take and it is driving me crazy. I told her before that I can't be her friend because it is not fair to my heart but she keeps coming back to me and I try to just ignore her but then I feel like I'm an ass for what I've done. Now, however, I realize that I have to be her friend if anything will ever come of this and that I should be grateful that she is even considering talking to me. I am talking to her on a consistent basis now but she has not brought up the relationship at all so I'm kinda in a state of depression everyday because I don't know what I'm doing. I still plan on doing little things for her everyday to show how much I care for her and putting aside my ego and my pride in order to rebuild my trust which is my number one priority right now but I don't know if I should express this to her or not? Any thoughts?
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