Drive Posted June 17, 2012 Posted June 17, 2012 Hi guys, So my ex happened to stop by along with a friend to watch our friends play hockey this evening. I didn't expect her to be here as she wasn't suppose to return back from her trip until tomorrow morning so I was caught off guard. I haven't spoken to her since she dumped me. I have been trying No Contact to help improve myself. I said hello to her when she came in which was pretty much all of the conversation we had. She smiled and nodded back but we didn't have much communication as she was talking to her friends the entire time while I was watching the game. She really seemed outgoing and happy to see everyone. It was like she was all better while I was in the process of healing. I noticed that she wasn't wearing her lucky ring which I bought for her while we were dating (understandable). I was crushed at this point as I still have feelings for her. I immediately went to the washroom to throw up and teared up a bit during the intermission. I wished I had the courage to pull her aside and tell her how I felt but it wouldn't be right with our friends being around. I thought I was making progress though the last few weeks. I do want her back but she is looking for somebody who communicate/emotional support all the time. On my previous post here on LS, the reason for the break up was communication between the two of us wasn't there during the last six months as I am pretty much closed myself off to her and everyone else due to depression. Communication was her biggest goal in the relationship. She loves to talk and felt that the connection between the both of us wasn't there due to this which made her very unhappy in the relationship. We were great for for the first year and a bit until I started to suffer a few concussion which triggered the depression. It will be a tough summer as both of us will be attending a few of our friends weddings so we will have to bump into each other 4-5 times in the next three months. I been seeking help from therapist for the depression which is slowly helping but not up there yet. The doctors said that it going to take some time to recover from the concussions. He wouldn't prescribe any medication for depression as he feels that I can beat it. I have been exercising daily, eating a lot more healthier, going out more often which has helped. I still can't shake that feeling that I screwed up badly and it was my mistake for not opening up. Continue NC or should I talk to her in person to tell her my feelings? Any opinions and suggestions would be helpful. Thanks,
Philosoraptor Posted June 17, 2012 Posted June 17, 2012 Talking to someone who is outwardly over you is almost certain to put you a few steps back and give you a nice burst of extra unnecessary pain. Continue your path and keep working on yourself.
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