Tractor Posted June 15, 2012 Posted June 15, 2012 Short history-We broke up,she moved out,MY FAULT,2 yrs ago. Visited,moved there,(didnt live with her) we worked but no go. I took contract job on west coast. Rented my house in midwest,packed my stuff and was gone. It was very good for me. Deal was,the rest of your stuff is in your bldg on the farm.Not my house in midwest,not hers, a farm we used to live on that I still own. Get it leave my stuff there. Agreed. She has means,time, and goes to that area often. Fast fowrard 20 months- I go there to vivit my mom,(larger family farm,ok so Im a hillbilly) go to my place and guess what I see. Her stuff. I call her and we talk, she has been busy, lack of funds, nothing outlandish or unreasoable. But we have been in communication this whole time. Child thing,not bio,but mine. Bottom line is, if I want this done Im going to have to do it. The trailer is sitting in my driveway now. Started dealing with this a few days ago and I have a real high anxiety level right now.Tommorrow is travel day. The last few days we have talkd a bit trying to get it all together. She has ask me do a few things for her while Im there. Things which are really special either for her or child. These things are not "task" or sex. But special and meaningful. Im not sure I can do these things and keep it pulled tight so to speak, but I dont know if I am capeable of saying no. I know how these things make me feel, not sure of the motivation,unsure of my ability to emotionally handle this. And I feel like I just might be on day one in a few days after two years. Starting Over.
Philosoraptor Posted June 15, 2012 Posted June 15, 2012 If you want to move on you need to set boundaries and stick to them. Put yourself first here and do what will be best for you now and in the long run.
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