Starting to go crazy

[mr-lonely]

Well yesterday i found proof that my ex girlfriend kissed another boy once, when to the cinima with him, when for a drive with him, but also in this diary she pulled out on a hotel offer thats in black and white.

 

we was together near 7 years, it broke my heart. this happened 18 months ago but only now i found out, i know at the time she was unhappy as we did row a lot.

 

well its day 2 i know its not long, but as we had a rented house together and stuff we had to talk about stuff, but now she texts me all day, just now she came to my work place thats 18 miles from were we use to live.

 

this boy worked with her, he showed her attention although this boy was with a girl and still is. problem is they work together and still today they do but she said she is getting a transfer from work and promise not be around him. she said she dun like him and she acted like that as we was rowing an i mean a lot and he lifted her up.

 

well as i said above she is always calling / texting. i said i dont know if i love her as she hurt me bad. i asked for time but she is begging to get back and show me what i mean to her. i still low, not eaten in 2 days, cant get thoughts out of my head and im starting to go insane now..

 

what shall i do. she wants to get back and prove that she will never do it again, she moving work, no contact with the boy, she said she dun care if i bust the boy up, i have got his number and i want to speak to his girl to tell her this as she got every rite to know.

 

any help. this girl was my first love and we got so much past i dont know what to do.

i got feeling i think, but last night we sat up our old house (her house now) and talked and she huggin me, kissin me, we even had sex but thats not helping me an i bet not her, i have asked for space..

 

my mind is 110% fried. i dont want walk from her as she is my only friend and sun like seeing her upset. i gave my friends up for this girl, stopped loads of things to keep the relationship sweet

[ToyWithMe812]

You know what man, you sound too young for any sort of any imminent decision "must be now" shtuff.

 

I say proceed with caution, and let this be your learning lesson. I think you already know what you need to do here, you just want validation. Good luck.

 

On the other hand that you aren't a young buck, still proceed with caution, but if you think you can trust this girl down the road, and you think there is something there, by all means, pursue it...you only live once. If your instinct tells you to run, run - avoid her by all means and move on. Again, good luck.