Hp1991 Posted June 8, 2012 Posted June 8, 2012 Hi everyone. I'm having a hard time keeping my emotions in check and feel like I need some advise other than my own. Here is some background info : I'm (21) dating a 29year old for the past 2 years. I met him through the biggest player I have seen .I never knew men were capable of such ways until I met his friend. The friend was playing around while having a fiancee on the side who knew nothing about this. Anyways he was playing around and I got caught in his net ...I mostly rebounded with him and then I met my boyfriend through him . My boyfriend is very close friends with this despicable man and I cut contact with that guy after finding out about his real life. So my boyfriend knew that his freinds only mission was to get into ladies pants.. no I did not sleep with the guy . But the fact that I got involved with that guy is a bothersome topic for us so I've asked not to hear about him as I don't like him. (He's called up some of my friends the days before his wedding saying hes free and not even engaged) Our age difference ...yes it does pose as a problem . I really am myself with him but so far I had to literally do a 360 to be where I am now. I've changed so much that my own friends can't recognize me . In personality and appearance. He was the first person for me to sleep with. I guess I hold onto that sappy wish to be with him forever. The real story: After 2 years of being together , and hes dealt with my baggage so well. I have a very dark past where I didn't want to trust anymore men . I hated how they always got what they wanted and left. So when I met my boyfriend I was nowhere near looking for a relationship , I just wanted to find a guy to marry to ..if that wasn't in your plans then I'm not interested. We began some weird relationship based off sex and alcohol. Really i saw no future in this. I was very open with him I never lied. Never. I told him everything and he was as I would say not that open as I . We went through alot...and a few days ago we were talking about marriage. Haha not a proposal ... he didn't know if we were right for each other and we should think about it. Later a few days after that he comes out saying that he doesn't feel loved and that we are just like friends. I hear him comparing us to all his friends that are married or family that is married. How they are so close and supporting and I feel stuck becuase how can I be supporting when I don't know what you should say in an interview? I never been in a career interview , its so hard because I dont know what else to do but talk about things we have in common. Ive told him I love him and hes brushed it off because he had no reply. I wondered before as we are hitting 2 years and havent heard a word..but now I wonder if he'll even feel like that with me. What do I do ? I have been thinking about him and the things we can do together to spend more time . The activities that interest us but I only have a month . With that he'll make his decision whether if we can work . I really feel so hopeless right now. I have no control in this decision ..like always i will hear it and he leaves. I wondered how he doesn't feel loved . What is it i have to do for him to feel that ...then i start to wonder about his exes. I really need help I cant keep myself from going nuts.
thatone Posted June 8, 2012 Posted June 8, 2012 weren't looking for a relationship but looking for a guy to marry? doesn't make sense. you're chasing the childhood fantasy of being married, but can't see that it probably isn't gonna happen with this guy and if it does, it'll be a mistake. do you love him or love the idea of having a boyfriend? one is a lot closer to your maturity level than the other.
darkmoon Posted June 8, 2012 Posted June 8, 2012 so young, and radiant - why throw your best years away?? u can have most any man u want atmo
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