tornangel Posted June 3, 2012 Posted June 3, 2012 So, I am so tired of hating my ex and being so angry at him. I know its so unhealthy . He has a new relationship for two months and I cant help but think he wont abuse her like he did me. And I dont know if I am more angry at him for abandoning me, messing with my head, or abusing me, not to mention cheating on me. He wants to be friends with me and even help me move my stuff, which I told him, no way and that he has a gf. And his reply was, so doesnt mean I cant help you. Uggh. I am super torn and hurt. I had waited on him for 6 months while he was in Afghan and he will be back next week. Of course we will have to see one another for dropping off of our son. It sucks cause I ended it a few months ago, and I did so because I felt he was uncapable of loving me. And I am happy with my choice. But I am scared the abuse for so long he put me thru is taking its toll. I dont know if I will ever trust again. I find myself going on dates , but blowing guys off . Like I really dont trust them. So I am alone most of the time. Even weekend nights when I make plans with a guy, I will blow them off and be with my kids or alone. I dont know whats going on with me. My anger towards my ex is making me miserable...... Any input ???
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