Jingle14 Posted June 2, 2012 Posted June 2, 2012 Sorry, posted this in Breaking Up but probably should have put on here instead: My ex, who I truly believed (and still do, and I say this as someone who was married to someone else for 22 years before he and I got together) was the love of my life, lives - and works - in my neighbourhood, so every time I go out of my house, there is a chance I will bump into him or see him in his car. Thank God I have so far managed to avoid seeing him with my replacement. Not only this, but his parents live on the only road leading to my house and I have no option but to drive past it (I sometimes avoid going out just so I don't have to). His car is often there and it is a painful reminder for me, of all the happy times we shared in that car, of places we went to, just sitting in it together with a hand always affectionally resting on each other's legs. I just got home and, not only is his car at his parents but that of his 2 brothers. I think it's his mum's birthday around about now and I find it unbearable knowing they are all there celebrating, less a 3 minute walk from my home, my replacement no doubt there, and his daughter who I was never introduced to, in the house where I spent New Year's Eve with him the year before last. My replacement will be there now - at his side where I once was, and should still be - with him and all his family, holding her hand like he always held mine. How much more is my heart supposed to take. It's unbearable, and it is a year this month that I was dumped. How can I 'get over it' when I have this constant reminder. It is like a dagger in my heart every time I step out of my front door.
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