Troubled Heart Posted June 2, 2012 Posted June 2, 2012 I went out with S for 3 years (almost 4) when I was 25 years old. We broke up b/c he had a dependency on weed which I put up with b/c I loved him. Then, he started running it through our house to pay off some debt without me knowing. Needless to say I broke up with him for the outrageous break of my trust and for putting me in a potentially scary legal situation had we ever gotten a visit from the police. The other day I was drafting an email for a get together I'm throwing. I went to "S" to type in another friend's name and saw his with a green chat status dot next to it (I use gchat). So I thought about him and wondered why after 5 years (I'm now 30) he would show up like that - it has NEVER happened before. I went to happy hour with a friend and when I got home, the beer talked me into emailing him. When we broke up, he had emailed my mom to say he was sorry (I had told her about the weed since I knew I couldn't get back with him if my family knew about his extracirricular activities). She told me about the email and I told her to trash it - didn't want anything to do with him. So in my email I said we could chalk this up to the time he emailed my mom and we'd be even. I didn't expect anything. Woke up the next day and checked my email b/c i had that fuzzy-drank-too-much brain. He wrote back. Said he hoped things were well and responded with questions, like wanting to continue the conversation. I don't want to get back with him. I couldn't, given the history. I guess I was just curious about how he showed up all of a sudden.... maybe he unblocked me on gchat or something after 5 years. Why?! I wrote back. I know it's dangerous. I wrote back without asking questions, just making statements that don't require a response. We always talked about being friends but things were so tense with us that it never materialized. I'm not sure why I'm writing but more to vent since everyone I know would say I'm crazy for even sending the email in the first place. I know, it's stupid. I'm dumb.
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