scandaLIZZZ Posted May 31, 2012 Posted May 31, 2012 Where to start. Ok, so I met this guy at a St. Patrick's Day party. Ironically enough I was uninvited to a different party because my ex boyfriend was going to be there, so instead I went to my friend's boyfriend's house and met this new guy. We hit it off immediately, talking about everything and one topic we seemed to agree on was not liking relationships which was awesome. I had no intentions on liking this guy as more than a friend because I was still hung up on my ex and he was far from my type. I LOVE country music, bonfires, trucks, etc. He likes rap/hip hop, gambling, weed, etc. Nothing of what I saw myself being attracted to at all, despite him being good looking. A few days into it I found out that one of my friend's (who had just passed away) girlfriend was hooking up with this guy, which is a ****ty situation to begin with but she had a huge problem with me and this guy even speaking. I guess he had a talk with her and was going to settle on not speaking to either one of us to avoid drama (I still had no intentions of falling for him at all) So he ended up texting me telling me that he was just gonna stop all contact with the both of us and that would be it. All I said back to him was that I would fully support his decision if that's what he truly wanted, and not just to avoid hurting anyone's feelings. After that he chose to stay close to me and dropped all contact with her completely. He would send me "Good Morning" texts and talk to me all day while he was at work. He wanted to take me out on dates, which I wasn't used to. Then he wanted to hang out constantly and watch movies/cuddle and that terrified me. I was not about to screw over an awesome guy because I still wanted to be with my ex, so I began pushing him a way until I knew I was absolutely done with him. Luckily I did move on from my ex and now was completely willing to try things out with this new guy. His friends had been wondering what was going on with us and if we were in fact dating, and when I asked him about it he said if I wanted to then yes, we were dating. He ended up inviting me to go to his step-sister's wedding and we had so much fun. I am so comfortable around him and we can joke/talk about absolutely anything. I never realized how awful I was treated in the past until I met someone so wonderful and actually gave them an opportunity. Now everything has suddenly changed. He ended up telling me he still doesn't know if he wants a relationship. I understand that he didn't want one to begin with but the way he was acting he seemed like he was having somewhat of a change of heart. The way he looks at me and the things he says are so undeniable. You can tell he cares about me and likes me. So why is he running away? He's "been with" a number of girls but only had one relationship his junior year of high school - he is now 23 and his parents are separated. I guess I'm just sad because I had finally given an awesome guy a chance and everything was perfect and now it's just gone. There's nothing bad to look back on because he's absolutely perfect, any girl would be lucky to be with him. Us being such polar opposites makes things fun and interesting too, because I get to learn new things and so does he. Even though he completely cut the other girl off for me and honestly doesn't care what she thinks of him, he always tells me he cares what I think and he still likes me. When I confronted him about being scared he couldn't even deny it. I feel like even "dating" felt like a title to him and the pressure just pushed him away. I'm scared too but the risks you take and the pain you may feel beats regretting something that could've been awesome, because everything was as perfect as it could be. I decided to not go around our mutual friends any more and maybe not seeing me will feel weird and he'll have time to miss me. Any one of his friends I've talked to are also genuinely confused because they saw how happy we were and they just don't get why he would run away from me. I guess my question is what is there that I can do?
Author scandaLIZZZ Posted May 31, 2012 Author Posted May 31, 2012 Also to add to this, when we went to the wedding he asked me what he should introduce me as.. if he had no intentions of moving forward with me I'd assume he'd just know to say my name. I ended up telling him to say my name but he didn't add "my friend" in front of it so I saw that as a good sign.
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