xxSRMxx Posted May 31, 2012 Posted May 31, 2012 Im kind of reaching that stage! Im fed up of crying and feeling low about him. On sunday my dad suffered a heart attack, I was devastated and i will admit, I reached out to my ex. My dad thankfully is getting better and it wasnt fatal, My ex sent my dad a get well soon card, and it kind of messed my head up a bit. I started texting him again, not asking for a reconciliation but just to be friendly, after all, my ex says all the time he wants to be friends! But he was just awkward and offish with me and just kind of called me miss selfish and was a bit cruel, so ive washed my hands. There comes a time when you just get sick of it, and ive kind of reached that point, yep im devastated and my hearts still broken but im sick of the tears, im sick of the dysfunction in my life...Ive been reading a few inspirational books the past few days and im still having therapy..The books encourage me to write down my blessings, so i sat and did it. I wrote them down and the first one was that, my dad is alive. I mean what the heck would I have done if my dad had died? Thats when i started seeing the bigger picture, there are more important things in my life than my ex, Im staying away from the booze still, I reccomend u all do it!!! Im choosing to work all of the queens jubilee weekend rather than party like everybody else..Heck im saving money and distracting myself from him, everybody at my work makes me laugh so its a good distracter. Going out has done me ZERO favours. Ive started finally going to the gym, I go away in 6 weeks on holiday with my girlfriends, Im on a strict bikini diet and determined to go away feeling confident, sexy and i dont plan to sleep around, but i sure as hell plan to flirt up a storm and just enjoy life again.... I also noticed something today, On my way to work i was singing to myself, granted it was a song about letting me go etc, But i was singing, I havent sang since we split up. The only thing im still struggling with is my sleep pattern.... its still pretty messed up, but baby steps right...
Philosoraptor Posted May 31, 2012 Posted May 31, 2012 Sounds like you're moving in the right direction and I'm glad to hear your father is ok. Reminds me of this song: 311 LYRICS - Jupiter I hope your path continues to be positive
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