CLOCKER Posted May 31, 2012 Posted May 31, 2012 Hello there. This is my second post. I wrote previously about my last relationship; the first relationship I've been in since my divorce 2 1/2 years ago. I'm very interested in receiving feedback from this community regarding this matter. I have somewhat fragile emotions, and my main goal here is most certainly to learn how to protect my emotions. I am a caring person. I'm compassionate towards my fellow man. I want to live a pure life and make a difference in the lives of others in any way possible. I do not want this experience to negatively affect how I perceive the women I've yet to meet in my lifetime, so I'm reaching out. I took note of my ex girlfriend's seemingly nonsensical behavior and, while ultimately could be an aimless endeavor, I'm trying to make sense of it. I feel like why I might not fully understand the motives and or mindset for malicious behavior, I want to at least be able to better recognize the red flags and warning signs. It's been over 2 months since our breakup. It's been 1 month since I initiated no contact. I didn't do this by means of simply slipping away into the shadows; I let her know exactly what I was going to do and why. I decided to do this for reasons which will soon be divulged. After much reading, discussion with close friends and family and, most importantly, thorough research, I've come to the conclusion that my ex very well cold have been a full blown sociopath/psychopath. Wait. I know what you're thinking. It's easy to throw someone into this category when we feel like they have done us wrong. Also, it's entirely convenient for us to do this as some kind of self gratifying countermeasure. However, I consider myself a very logical person. I tried to remove myself from the situation as best I could while coming to this conclusion. I know it's not entirely possible, but I feel like my deductive reason is credible. I want to make this is simple as possible. I'm really struggling with the idea of moving on in life at the moment. I'm struggling with the idea of trust. The idea of trusting people and women is really bothering me at this point. I know that every human being isn't out to get me, but because of how hurt I tend to feel after I'm taken advantage of and what it tends to do to me emotionally, I'm really wanting to reach out for advice. How can I learn to trust people again and, at the same time, be able to effectively safe guard my emotions? I really have a heart for people and I don't want this to affect me permanently. Any general advice or input would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.
Author CLOCKER Posted June 2, 2012 Author Posted June 2, 2012 I guess I should offer a brief apology. I'm a beginner at posting in a forum, and I didn't realize there were about 4 other posts similar to this one- right down to having the same title. I guess I'll read a "for dummies" manual or something
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