Feel like an idiot

[robaday]

We broke up two months ago. It was really bad breakup, she finally lost it at me, a horrific argument and told me it was over.

 

I sucked it up and got on with my life. And then the calls and texts started, and emails. I stayed strong, but finally caved, when it was clear she was beside herself.

 

We got back onto better terms and spoke throughout the day and night for a week. But she kept flirting and inviting me round and I ignored it or changed the subject.

 

Finally, I asked if she wanted to go for a coffee. And she snapped at me, told me I was creeping her out because I was only after sex and we were just friends.

 

I have no idea what happened. I didnt flirt or play that game, and Im thinking maybe thats why she lost it at me like that. She said some horrible things too. And I feel horrific .

[blotter]

This is why it is important to maintain No Contact and not respond to breadcrumbs after the breakup. Chalk it up to lesson learned?

[robaday]

It just seems like she never knew me, guess thats what hurts the most. Like I did some unforgivable crime. Why do some people act this way when its over?

 

I wasnt a great boyfriend, Im the first to admit. But she broke up with me and hurt me profoundly by the way she did it. So, she got what she wanted, rid of me. So why continue to criticise me after, why continue to bring up how I could have saved it, or past mistakes I made?

 

I maintained my cool throughout this whole thing, because part of me, even though I was repulsed by the way she ended it, still loved her. Ive continued to be civil, but I finally snapped the other night and told her she was out of line. She said she couldnt meet up because she thought I was sleazy because Id gone on holiday to a famous party spot after we broke up. But seriously- it was already over before that - and I firmly told her so, that she has no right to have issues with what I did post breakup.