She's giving me a heads up that we're going on a break..

[ijustwanttruelove]

Hi.....I'm new here and i was just reading about GIGS, and im quite positive she has it now....

 

One thing i don't understand is she's telling me she's breaking up with me 3 months from now. I graduated HS and she's going to be a Senior in HS in september. We've been together for 17 months, as of today. Reason she told me is she doesnt wanna regret not doing things she hasnt expereinced and go out and have fun on her last year in hs. SHe doesnt want me to get hurt or jealous so she's giving me a heads up.

 

But the thing is, how am i gonna stay in this relationship, when i know that she's gonna break up with me anyways? She's saying that it's something we have to do to make us mature and not tie down on things we wanna do.

 

She keeps pushing me to start partying, and flirt with girks because i used to do it. She wants me to hang around with my friends and drink, and to not worry and just enjoy myself.......

 

BUT THOSE TIMES where i used to party and flirt aroundm those were the times that i was really sad and i used partying to temporarily hide and push away the sadness.'

 

ANd since i found her, ive never been sad since. I am happy because of her//

 

I asked her what if she finds someone new she just responded with "maybe we're not meant to be''

 

 

 

 

I was shocked and deeply hurt because we were just talking about getting tickets to a play called wicked on september, and now shes breaking up with me in august.

 

Im so hurt and in distraught after that. how could she tell me that???? it's like she's giving our relationship an expiration date, my love expiration date. she kept telling me she "I love you" also when we got off the fone last night.

 

 

I just balled. i love this girl. i love her family and my family loves her.......

 

but all of that didnt matter when she broke the news....

 

 

tbh idk what to feel....idk what to do!

 

I am lost.....can someone talk to me:(