Meg717 Posted May 23, 2012 Posted May 23, 2012 One of my friends told me my ex has changed his relationship status on facebook to "in a relationship." My friend wasn't telling me to report anything, it was more of a slip. I think my friends think I'm doing way better than I am. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and making positive changes but the situation still stings. This friend also said that my ex is super corny about the new gf on FB, which to me is weird bc when him and I were together, he hardly ever posted things on FB bc he felt there was no need to announce our love for each other all the time. So after I got off the phone I text my ex: "So are you going to store all your sh*t at your new girlfriends house or continue to mooch off of me?" He instantly called me and wanted to know who told me. I explained that it's a public forum and it's social media and if he didn't want it to get back to me, he should keep it private. We were on the phone for about an hour and ended up talking about a lot of things. Mostly our relationship, what went wrong, how we're doing now etc. I get upset bc his big reason why he didn't want me to find out is bc he's trying to protect me and that's why we're not friends on facebook. He feels he keeps messing up during the break up process. I told him I don't need his protection, that we're not friends on facebook bc we can't be. He thinks I'm laying in bed crying everyday..I'm not! I am so much stronger than I thought I could ever be. If someone would have told me on New Years Eve when it was just him and I spending the night together having a great time, that in 2 months we'd be starting the breakup process and in 5 months he'd have a new gf..1. I'd never believe that person and 2. I would have said my life would end and I don't know how I'd be able to move on. I surprised myself. Yes, it's hard...esp since I feel like I'm hitting brick walls with the new men I talk to, but I know in the end it's for the best. I even said to him last night.. we can't live in the past, I'm focusing on me. In the end, it's just going to be me - so I need to be happy. I'm doing what I want, going where I want, just taking advantage of the life. His response was "why couldn't you think like that when we were together?" My answer: "I was addicted to you, you were like a drug to me..You were right, this relationship was toxic. And this period has been my detox." I guess you could say I had a slight relapse. lol. Not going to lie, I am terrified to be in another relationship. I am afraid I am going to fall into similar habits with the next guy. Always wanting to spend time with that person and getting upset if it wasn't enough. Anyway...I am mad at myself bc I have been a mess all day. I'm not even sure why I've been upset bc at this point I don't want him back and bc I knew he has been banging someone so it was bound to get serious. I wish I never angrily text him, I wish I didn't answer when he called - but we've got to live with the impulse decisions we make. Anyway, I just needed to let that all out.... I'm not even sure if it makes sense lol.
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