lostcommunication Posted May 19, 2012 Posted May 19, 2012 It's been nearly 2 weeks since my breakup. Close to a 6 year relationship, 1.5 year engagement. I've been NC with my ex since "the day" although she had tried to initiate communication 3 days after the breakup. I felt horrible last week, incredibly emotional and wrecked. Work was terrible, being at home was worse. I find it very odd that this week has been a complete turn in how I feel. I can't even honestly say that I miss or love her anymore. I've realized how miserable I had been during the last 3 months since the problems started. I feel ready to branch out and try new things, meet new people. I wouldn't have ever thought that I would feel this way so soon after being left, it confuses me. Why do I feel bad for not feeling terrible anymore? I'm glad that she hasn't tried to make contact since last week. The last attachment of our relationship had been dealt with last night, the cellphone that I was still paying for 2 weeks after being dumped (lol didn't want the $400 cancellation fee). I do find myself thinking about her every now and then, what is she up to? Is she happy like she wanted? I hope she is happy. If she isn't; she threw away the best part of her life for nothing, that she took for granted most days. I feel like I was just a bank account for the last little while of the relationship. It seems too soon for me to move on, yet I feel like I have no feelings for the woman anymore. It's time to move on, it's time to be happy again. I just can't understand how I have progressed so quickly after being such a complete mess less than 7 days ago.
d'Arthez Posted May 19, 2012 Posted May 19, 2012 It might simply be that you emotionally checked out long before the break. That does not mean however you have completely healed from the relationship. Perhaps it is time to branch out and do a few new things, meet people do things you enjoy. But most of all to enjoy life again.
MissBee Posted May 19, 2012 Posted May 19, 2012 Not to burst your bubble, but sometimes this is part of the breakup emotional rollercoaster, where you can feel completely fine and even like you have magically moved on and then BAM! Next week or tomorrow, you feel low again. I hated that about my breakup, as I felt it was always a false alarm. Every time I felt over it, it was only an upswing before the downswing came again. After a while, when I truly got over it, I got to a more steady place. But I'd be suspicious of thinking that what you feel at 2 weeks will be a lasting feeling. If it is for you, then that would be awesome! But from my experience and the experiences of others...it usually is a rollercoaster esp. during the early phases and you can swing from one extreme to the next in emotions. 2
Author lostcommunication Posted May 19, 2012 Author Posted May 19, 2012 I hear you. I think it has just clicked in my head this past week what she's been putting me through for months. From February until the breakup in may we were in jeopardy of losing the relationship. I fought for it and she seemed to push away. Pretty much the last 3 weeks of the relationship seemed like NC.. She definitely checked out early, I hope I've built up a resistance so I can carry on as well.
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