cinnamonstix49 Posted June 24, 2004 Posted June 24, 2004 This is my first post... it took me hours to figure out how to make it... so bear with me... I met this guy online 6 years ago. We became friends almost immediately and we talked on the phone a few days following. He is a really great guy, probably the sweetest I've ever met... a few years ago at Christmas he came to visit me. Before he came I was so excited, I counted the days 165 down to 0, I couldn't wait and on the day he arrived I was so scared I could have vomited in the airport. But once I saw him... the real him, I was so happy, I don't think anything could ever match that feeling. It was the best 10 days of my life, really. Then he had to leave... a month or two after he went home he started changing, he started treating me differently, talking to me less, being less enthusiastic, falling away from me. I love him so much, but it hurts so bad. I think about him every day of my life, I've had boyfriends, but I feel guilty dating someone when I have these feelings for Matt. When I do get the chance to speak to him, I cry, no matter what we talk about. I got to talk to him today. He told me I shouldn't love him the way I do, I should only love him as a friend, that hurt so bad. I started to hypervenalate. He then said that he loves me, not as a friend, but he cares about me. It doesn't make any sense and I don't know what to do... someone please help!
honey2005 Posted June 24, 2004 Posted June 24, 2004 Do you remember that time we went to the movies and Quintin and his friend Josh were there, too? And we went around the mall with them and none of them said anything to us, just made us follow them? And then we when went to the movies we had to watch 2 Fast 2 Furious and Quintin was pretending he was driving:)) Ahh that was so great. Then after awhile that scary Josh boy started rubbing my leg, and you looked down and were like ahhh!! and you said you wanted to grab it and we just sat there and started at it for a long time:)). Then after the movie he still didn't say one word to us:)) We are such losers:)). I know that didn't have anything to do with Matt, but I hope it cheered you up. I know you love him, and you have for a long, long time. I don't know why he keeps doing this, saying he loves you, then saying he only cares about you. He has been acting weird lately, maybe he's trying to be "bad" and say that love and caring for someone is the same thing. Boys really really suck sometimes:(. Just remember that I am always here for you, no matter what. Everything happens for a reason, and if you don't get to be with Matt, I'm sure there's someone even greater that you will love even more that you really will get to be with. LYLAS girl, if you need me I'm always here:D.
Author cinnamonstix49 Posted June 24, 2004 Author Posted June 24, 2004 Originally posted by honey2005 ) We are such losers:)) Thanks Tarah for that, it did make me laugh and I feel a little better about Matt. I guess I needed some time to myself to think about it. I wish he hadn't changed and I think if I could see him again that he would un-change... but I probably won't get to find out. Thanks for being such a good friend and for listening to all my problems. If you need me I'm here for you. LYLAS&C&F&NA Yay for the movies tomorrow
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