'Affair' finally destroyed my 12yr relationship, i'm broken right now...

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12 yr relationship, partner got involved in an affair last august to October. I left my home (house in her name & disabled mum lives in annexe next door so no choice legally or otherwise) I ploughed all available money into renting a place for six months up front (£4k) & getting my head together.Never accepted it was over. New year she had a change of heart & I returned home 13 April as we had agreed to 'try again'...

Fraught with the usual expected insecurities, other person never stopped pursuing,despite 'no contact' which was never really the case (false recovery) All blew up three weeks ago, I got arrested for assaulting the other person... I fell in the trap laid for me.. Now she has ended our relationship,run back to the affairee and I have to leave again. I still have stuff in the car I never unpacked. I've been so stupid to believe the affair would not start up again. I'm in the process of setting up a business, I have to give up my job as her mums carer which is my income and I have no-where to live as I cannot afford to run a place without an income. My world has been turned upside down again & I'm wracked with fear for the future, I'm so emotionally broken I can't eat / sleep & I'm full of anxiety. We have agreed i can remain in my 'home' until finances are sorted.. how generous, but seeing her leave to meet up with the other person last night only four days after ending our relationship is just a nightmare.. No-one can put me up longterm & family live too far away as my business partner lives in the same village, so i have to stay local. Just needed to get this down somewhere, I feel like such a fool & i'm just devastated... Oh what am i going to do...

[alexandria35]

I'm sorry for what you are going through. Sounds like you really need some support and a sympathetic ear. You might want to repost this on the infidelity board as there are many people there you have gone through exactly what you are going through and they will offer you some great support and advice.