Reincarnated Posted May 15, 2012 Posted May 15, 2012 I am not ok right now. We have broken up and gotten back together so many times in the last year and a half it's ridiculous and a waste of time. This is the last time, I can't do this anymore. My heart is broken over and over again by him and I can't do it again. I don't ever want to feel this way again. Starting NC right now. Even as I type that I know it's a lie. I can make myself not initiate contact but As soon as he contacts me I am weak again. Ugh I just need to get through the work day and go home. It's nearly impossible to keep it together right now.
d'Arthez Posted May 15, 2012 Posted May 15, 2012 Try to find support from friends and family in real life. That can make a huge bit of difference. Block his number, remove him from FB, etc.. Don't make it harder on yourself than necessary.
MissBrunette84 Posted May 15, 2012 Posted May 15, 2012 Hello, I've been in exctly the same situation. I have been broken up with so many times by the same person and I also decided 2 weeks ago it would be the last time he decides he's leaving. I feel your pain. I deactivated my Facebook and I don't miss it, it helps alot. Just post here, it really does help 1
Author Reincarnated Posted May 15, 2012 Author Posted May 15, 2012 Thanks for the reply. My friends refuse to talk to me about him anymore because I should have ended this a LONG time ago. They are fed up with me going back over and over again when its obvious he is no good for me. I don't have any family. I feel so alone right now. He's deleted from everything. Done.
Author Reincarnated Posted May 15, 2012 Author Posted May 15, 2012 Thanks brunette. How did you decide it was the last time? How are you feeling two weeks later?
Tree_Salmon Posted May 15, 2012 Posted May 15, 2012 I've done the same about 8 times. You need to take some time to find yourself. I wish I had done this back after the first time, we might have been able to save it. just take time to learn who you are again. then maybe life will change for you both
MissBrunette84 Posted May 15, 2012 Posted May 15, 2012 Thanks brunette. How did you decide it was the last time? How are you feeling two weeks later? Because we broke up about 4 times in the space of 6 months before xmas and then in January he does it again. This time I think ok he surely wont come back again, he does after I don't contact him at all, change my number, emails, de activate facebook. He turned up at my door. I forgave him as he was what I felt was sincere and he'd even wrote me a letter to say sorry etc... I thought ok hes got the point he can't keep breaking my heart over and over. No he broke up with me again 2 weeks ago, everytime he does, I'm heart broken, I cant get out of bed, I cry for hours on end EVERYTIME. There comes a point when you have cried and cried and can't cry anymore that you need to stop putting yourself through it. I have had to deal with the same intense heartbreak everytime and everytime its crippling. 2 weeks on, I'm sad, I cry... but its also getting better. I don't have to worry about putting a foot wrong for him to leave again, I don't have to put up with being ignored then made to feel like I'm smothering him when I text once in 3 days because he can't be bothered to even contact me at all. I don't have to sit alone and cry because if he see's me more than once every 2 weeks, its way too much and I'm being clingy. Its silly. I hurt, but I also hurt when I was with him because I was so frustrated constantly, I knew I was never clingy, I never texted too much (once every 2/3 days or a phone call once a week) or asked for alot of attention at all to be fair. Catch 22 but I beleiev its gotta be better this way, than continue that way. Sorry its long lol
d'Arthez Posted May 15, 2012 Posted May 15, 2012 Thanks for the reply. My friends refuse to talk to me about him anymore because I should have ended this a LONG time ago. He's deleted from everything. Done. That sucks about your friends. If you have gone through this a few times your friends will simply think you'll never learn. So it will take some time for your friends to know you are really serious about it. Find things to occupy your mind, which do not remind you of your ex. Hobbies, work or whatever makes you concentrate on something besides the ex; it could even be such a simple thing as taking walks. Reading and posting here can have some positive effects as well. You are not alone.
Author Reincarnated Posted May 15, 2012 Author Posted May 15, 2012 Thanks so much you guys. Brunette, it helps a lot right now to hear your story. I'm sorry you have been going through that. I'ts so unfair. I want you, no I don't, yes i do, no I don't, yes I do.... UGH!! I'm so fed up with this and angry, and at the same time incredibly sad and already miss him. This is terrible. I need to rest my brain before it explodes.
MissBrunette84 Posted May 15, 2012 Posted May 15, 2012 Thanks so much you guys. Brunette, it helps a lot right now to hear your story. I'm sorry you have been going through that. I'ts so unfair. I want you, no I don't, yes i do, no I don't, yes I do.... UGH!! I'm so fed up with this and angry, and at the same time incredibly sad and already miss him. This is terrible. I need to rest my brain before it explodes. You're welcome. I loved this man with all that I have. I wouldn't have put up with so much if I didn't. It is difficult but you do deserve more than being picked up and put down like a toy whenever they feel like it. Just think, if he comes back again. The chances are really high he'll leave again. Do you want to be at this day where you are now, all over again? do you want to feel this way again? I'm betting the answer is no. This is what stops me from wanting to contact him at all right now. I just don't want to keep going through pain. Just give yourself some space from it. Think about things clearly.
GG3 Posted May 15, 2012 Posted May 15, 2012 How old are you and how old is he? What are his reasons for breaking up with you?
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