still in pain

[14afreshstart]

it's been a little over a year since my divorce was final and i'm still struggling as if it was yesterday.

it feels as if this pain will never go away. it's becoming unbearable. i miss my family, i miss my wife, i miss my kids.

how is this fair? is there a God out there? my youngest calls me every night before he goes to bed and every morning before he goes to school. it is tearing us up. where is the justice in not seeing my kids every day. twice a week simply doesn't cut it.

at a loss of what to do next. everyone says you have to stay strong for the kids, i understand that but it's almost impossible to keep at least a minimum amount of motivation to sustain oneself and hold on to your job.

i am afraid i'll still be in a state of mourning 5 years from now or maybe even more if i live that long.

i pray, don't know what i'll do if it wasn't for these kids.

[Tree_Salmon]

I feel for you man.

I might have dodged this very scenario.

I almost had kids and I can't even imagine how painful this breakup would have been then.

 

All I can say is I'm sure time will heal you and as long as you can still see your kids they'll be ok. Don't give up, they need to be your inspiration.

 

What happened between the two of you?

[Reddice]

I just read your background story. There is not much I can say or do to make you feel better I think. Correct me if I'm wrong, but you strike me as a religious man. If so, the only thing I can do is refer you to the book of Job. You might find some strength in it.

[buckeye]

I understand. It will be 2 years come July that the papers were signed. I still think about what went wrong. I still cry. However, the good news is we are healing. It takes time, but we are healing.

[worldgonewrong]

I can relate. Currently going the same nightmarish path. Each day is a struggle, although with glimpses of light. But God, so so damn tough...