DuchessKaye Posted May 7, 2012 Posted May 7, 2012 I think he likes me, he really really likes me... Well, that's what I think. It's like I'm sure he likes me but I'm just not sure if I am really sure. I've spent another whole weekend with him, and oh this time, sex was not included in the equation. No sex in 3 days. Just quality time together... He introduced me to his friends and his brothers as his 'GIRLFRIEND'... Finally! I thought he didn't want to commit to me. He complimented me a lot, I cooked, I cleaned the kitchen, I made and rearranged his bedroom. He was amazed and said I am such a good housewife. I blushed! He hugged me, kissed me passionately (different from usual...) He started considering my opinions. Like when we were out shopping and he feels like buying something, he'd ask me first, if I like it then he's buying it, if I don't then he won't. When he saw me texting, he asked me who was I texting with and even demanded me to show him my text messages. Not sure if he was jealous, but he said he was. I hugged him and I smiled, I told him "I don't want you to be jealous... you made me happy though." He didn't want me to leave his place, he wanted me to stay but I had to go, so I'm now here in my house, typing, and rambling here in LS. When I told him I needed to go home, he said, "Let's grab some bite first." Told him I was still full, he offered to drive me home, (rare! he was always lazy to drive, he'd rather get me a taxi and pay for it) He didn't drop me off home right away, he stopped on a restaurant and ordered food for us even though I told him I didn't want to eat. So I had to hang out with him for another 3 hours and we talked my way home for 2.5 hours. He has been staring at me, touching me and kissing my cheek and hands randomly while he was driving... I was happy... I don't know if it's just me and my "hidden insecurity" as to why I am confused right now. Eversince I had that terrible pain that I had on my first major breakup with my first love 5 years ago, I wasn't really able to open my heart to any of these guys I have been dating no matter how much I like them... including him... Honestly, right now I'm feeling like I am not good enough for him, I just realized I am not good enough for anyone and now that everything is going exactly how I want it, I just want to cry. Oh yes, maybe I just randomly rambled here and didn't make any sense. Forgive me, I am just feeling a bit retarded at the moment.
wwwjd Posted May 7, 2012 Posted May 7, 2012 Honestly, right now I'm feeling like I am not good enough for him, I just realized I am not good enough for anyone and now that everything is going exactly how I want it, what is this self defeating nonsense? This question or revelation should not even exist, I mean, it is not even a real question or feeling. The fact that he likes you AT ALL fully negates the existance of that line of self questioning and your time is better spent living and enjoying life in the moment than stopping to analyze over a question that has no reason to exist. So, shut that inner voice off, or ignore it and get back to living the reality dream!!! Because the voice is just wasting your time.
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