I messed up..

[Sunny D]

This is my first post, figured i would give a little info on me. I am 21 years old, im in the Army. I am a combat medic. Im mixed hispanic and indian. Im from maryland born and raised... anyways..

 

So me and my room mate are best friends. For all intents and purposes we will call him Nick. We were both in the same platoon in afghanistan. We were both the 2 medics for a platoon. He is my brother, I love him like my own blood. He is very outgoing, he gets lots of girls and everyone likes him. I am liked by everyone too, but im not that awesome at picking up girls.

 

Anyways so my room mate has a girlfriend back in cali where he is from. They are serious but he cheats on her alot. So lately he has been cheating on her with this girl. She is a medic in the support battalion. we will call her jenny. Cute girl, nice girl we were friends. She would come over every night and they would have sex. I didnt care, ever. He treated her like trash and calls her names, i never cared though and she always came back.

 

So we went out to the bar one night. He went home with some other girl. Jenny was clearly upset about it. So we go back, i told her she can sleep in his bed. The whole cab ride she was all over me. I said whatever. Before i knew it, she was in my bed. She was talking to me and I fell asleep. Whatever. I woke up and she was gone. I didnt care. I get up to take a piss, by the time im out the bathroom she is in my bed again. She said i was hard to sleep next to. I rolled on her or something. I dont know. Well here she is on my bed. Were lying down and talking. One thing led to another and we had sex. I had sex with her for half an hour, and i didnt even bust. My room mate called, i was going to pick him up. We agreed we werent going to tell anyone.She said something about a next time. I wasnt paying attention. I was thinking maybe ill get it again.

 

I hadnt had sex in a long time, and i told one of my friends. It had been such a long time since i had sex that people were calling me gay jokingly. So im telling one of my friends about it. I told him not to say anything, but he told someone, who told someone... and someone told her. She got angry at me. I tried to sort it out and be nice. I made sure she was aware that nick doesnt like her, she is a cheap **** to him. He tells her this all the time. She really likes him, but is ok with this. She has some wierd hope that he will come around or something.

 

So the cycle continues, she comes over the next night like nothing happened and she has sex with him. She does it every night. Then i started having feelings for her, out of no where. I wanted to be with her. I dont know how or why. It just happened. I tried to talk to her, she didnt really care. I let her rock. Whatever. Then out of no where I started hating her. I hate her so much. She continues to hang around, and I make all theese jokes about how she is a Ho, she a slut, she is dirty. I make jokes about how i should pimp her out. My room mate makes the same jokes. SHe plays along and laughs, but theres a difference between nick and I. Nick is playing, I am serious. I hate her. I hate seeing her everyday.

 

She tells my room mate something about how I sucked in the bed, then the classic thing every slut says "His dick was small". Not true, trust me on this one. its not. Anyways, since she wanted to put me on blast I put her on blast. "I didnt bust because you were loose". Its so akward, and I hate her so much. I know we cant be friends with her anymore. I dont want to be friends with nick now either... but he is moving out soon so she will follow. Oh BTW Jenny is married.

 

So here I am, call me jelous, angry .... i dont know. I hate this. I wish I never would have ****ed her. I am not sure if i have a crush on her or if i just hate her. This sucks. I hate coming in my room because she is always here with nick. I hate seeing her around the brigade area. I hate this so much. Im not too awesome at picking up girls either. I get told a lot i am a fairly good looking guy. I hit the bar with jenny and nick last night, talked to lots of girls, danced with lots of girls didnt pull a single number. Then again i didnt ask for one. My game isnt that great.. Oh ill post up a pic to show that im not ugly lol. But this situation cant be fixed. I dont know what to do. Im not nervous, im just feeling a little depressed about the situation.

[jlee45]

you have to get to the point where you comfortably dont give a F about her. you dont hate her, you dont like her, she doesnt exist. when you are out just be you! confidence goes so much farther than you know. if shes not having it move on to the next one.. say u completely creep some girl out at a bar. who cares?? get it out of your head, it absolutely doesnt matter.