Daniel Kaiser Posted May 4, 2012 Posted May 4, 2012 Hello community! I feel it's pointless to tell my whole story here, but suffice to say, my relationship ended before it's time. We both still felt very deep feelings for each other, but jealousy and pride made her end it, even though she didn't want to. I tried chasing after her for a while, sent her flowers, but she didn't make it easy for me. In her mind, I believe, she thinks I have A LOT of chasing after to do, even though I really didn't do anything that could be considered a big mistake. It's hard to deal with a pride queen, I feel like she would never get down from her throne, even if it's tearing her apart. On my side, I feel it's won't be good to be in a relationship that I had to beg for. What I really wanted to hear is, relax man, you did the best you could, being the man you were at the time. Everything will be ok in the end... But what I feel, right now, is that we are both losing on what could be an awesome relationship, unique chemistry and all that stuff. Some experience sharing would be nice confort, but right now I feel like I'm stuck in a moment; I keep going through the break-up in my mind, thinking about what I really did to wrong her, thinking about what I could have done different, what were her mistakes (that she couldn't see) and I wanna be free from this Thanks for reading through this, my mind is in a mess I've never been before. She was my first girlfriend, and I was her's. We are both 23 yrs old.
daisy088 Posted May 4, 2012 Posted May 4, 2012 If she broke it off with you- thats what she wanted or thats what she knew was right. Do not chase her. She is letting you go. Go NC and stick with it. I promise you, it gets better with time. Totally normal to be rehashing the past and totally normal to be sad and scared. However, if you did something so bad that would cause her to have to break up with you, then perhaps take some time to do some thinking. Why did you do that, whatever it is? Do you actually love her? If you really do love her and if you know youre the one who screwed it up- give her (and yourself!) some time and then write a heartfelt honest letter expressing your feelings and see how it goes. If both of you really screwed it up- it sounds pretty broken. You may just not be right for each other in which case NC is the way to go. I know it hurts and Im so sorry for your loss. Good luck + hugs.
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