xxSRMxx Posted May 4, 2012 Posted May 4, 2012 Its been a month today since my whole world came crashing down on me and my boyfriend told me he did not love me anymore. This exact time a month ago I left his flat and went straight to my friends, smoked 20 cigarettes (i dont even smoke) drank a bottle of vodka and cried my heart out. I clung onto the fact we would be back together by monday. Ive done the psycho ex thing, the crying, turning up at his house, I was hospitalised, tried anti depressents (im off them now, didnt like them) and broke every rule in the NO CONTACT book... Im trying to peice together how I feel today and if i have made any progress?? I still feel horrible and think about him alot, and the mornings are the worst! Still, Ive gone back to work and when i am NC im in an alot better place than what I am when i do speak to him. But i dont cry all day like I did in the first 2 weeks, I can socialise, Ive lost weight and I am able to laugh finally! I go to therapy and it does help me, and ive started working on the issues that i had that messed up my relationship in the first place. four weeks is NOTHING, and i dont expect a miracle, but when i think about how i felt just three weeks ago, today is a breeze compared to then. If your new to this forum, PLEASE STAY NC. I personally deactivated my facebook rather than delete him, the reason I did it is because when you are going through a break up, looking at everybody else and there ''perfect lives'' just makes you feel even worse than even having him on your friends list. Thanks to everyone who has supported me during this horrible first month, love to you all x 3
LadyLost Posted May 4, 2012 Posted May 4, 2012 SRM- I have read some of your posts. Well done for getting though the first month and doing so well.
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