ACI0190 Posted May 3, 2012 Posted May 3, 2012 This is really the shortest version I can give. She lied to me, she did, and it's something her and I both know. In my pain, I was confused and hurt and didn't know what to do. I loved this girl a lot, still do, and I felt that right then I shouldn't be following my heart. My mom told me that I needed to distance myself, and that the best way to do that was to tell her there was someone else I was thinking about, never said I was in a relationship or anything crazy, and I was just so hurt and confused that I went along with it like the idiot and the bad person that I am. And now I can't sleep at night knowing that I've lied, and I need to tell her, but I don't know how to tell her. No, there is no way she would ever find out about it, but personally, I just can't lie to someone I love, and I need to tell her. No, we aren't in a relationship, and I hardly ever see her, but she needs to know, I can't lie to this girl. I don't know what to do. I want her back more than anything. Should I just explain why I did what she did and hope for the best. Her and I have both made mistakes, and I forgive her for hers, I hope she can forgive me for mine. I love this girl more than anything, and honestly, she is the one, I know all the jazz about a million fish in the sea, but I know she is the one, and because of that, I can't let the lie go, even though I know she has already forgotten about it, and there is really no way it will ever come up again if I did just let it go, but I'm not that guy, I'm not a liar, and I don't want there to be anything but truth in our relationship.
Author ACI0190 Posted May 3, 2012 Author Posted May 3, 2012 There were actually kind of a few. The most recent was telling me after the breakup she wanted to work on the relationship, but then blowing me off the second that I brought it up and telling me it was over. It was like a second breakup and it really hurt me, giving me hope then tearing me down. The first of any was when she told me she loved me and that I made her happy and she went back to her ex days after telling me that, that only lasted a few days and we moved on after that, but man, that hurt. There were a couple of smaller ones in between that were generally negligible. Ever since the breakup, she has kind of been playing games with me, going back and forth and really hurting me, but I can forgive all that, none of it matters to me.
Philosoraptor Posted May 3, 2012 Posted May 3, 2012 Sounds like you're both playing games and it does not seem like she is emotionally ready to commit. I wouldn't say anything because she will just use it as fuel against you in order to keep you going back and forth. Honestly she sounds like a mess and is best to be avoided. If "the one" treats you this way then I would choose to be single forever.
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