Chrisal23 Posted May 3, 2012 Posted May 3, 2012 Its been about a month since our breakup. Many things pop in me head and I want to know the truth or at least honest opinions. Some of the things that I dislike about myself was me loosing my temper and not being able to be completely honest. If i wasn't honest it was because I was scared she would break up with me which I now see as pointless right. For instance if a girl talked to me I wouldn't tell her, but not a girl trying to get with me but as a friend you know. My ex was jealous . I didn't hid things though for the most part it was just things I was scared of her reaction. I didn't cheat on her and was completely faithful when I said that I wanted only her in my life. I could have also been more romantic at times and express my love more affectionately , although I did tell her and did more expressing a year ago than recently before we broke up, but I've changed with all the fights we had. Things that I disliked in my relationship with her was her not trusting me. I was constantly reminded how she didnt feel loved by me, this made me feel like I didn't know how to love a girl or could make her feel special. She would ask for my phone at times when someone texted me pretending she wanted to use the internet. Each Sunday when I wanted to be with my mom after I dropped her home after church she would just say "bye" no kiss. She explained it was because she was upset she couldn't spend time with me. Anytime I was free I was with her though. One thing that bugged me was her leaving with another guy to eat , without telling me. I'm not that kind of person who would say u cant go out with noone, but I know that If I did the same to her she wouldn't like and would of breaking up with me on the spot. I don't like talking bad about anyone but the reason for me saying all this is for someone to see both sides. Ofcourse my side won't be the same as hers but I'm trying to be as honest as possible since I want a sincere opinion. Don't get me wrong I love this girl whether we had a lot of fights we deffinitely had great times together where I felt I wanted no other girl and felt lucky to have her. Also i didn't like the fact her mom knew a lot about us and our problems. This was good and bad. Her mom would also constantly ask for favors from me. I'm still young, I'm 20 and my ex is 17. Before people say that she's immature and too young for love which I hear all the time and trust me i know, please analyze our relationship as serious as anyone else's. We did love each other and till now I'm questioning if she really loved me? Honestly I know I do but I can't force her to feel the same. Sorry for a long post but this explains a lot of my situation and what I went through. Any advice would be greatly appreciated
flitzanu Posted May 3, 2012 Posted May 3, 2012 you're asking if she loved you? that's not a question anyone can answer except her.
Author Chrisal23 Posted May 3, 2012 Author Posted May 3, 2012 Your right but I guess it's best to tell myself no so I won't be disappointed later on :/
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