LuckyPenny Posted May 2, 2012 Posted May 2, 2012 We had been arguing alot because she was a flake when it came to our relationship. She did alot that if I had been on the outside looking in I would have told the person to leave her but I still i loved her. We kept fighting and I apologised for blaming her for most of our problems, even if that was how it felt, I had no right to make someone feel that way. She left tonight said she has feelings for me but they arnt as strong anymore, she doesn't want to feel like this anymore. What hurts more than her leaving is knowing we could have fixed our problems if she would just talk to me, let me in but she never did.. I handed over my whole heart.. Each time I tried to leave she asked me back and I went running because I just wanted her to love me the way I loved her, wanted her to want to be with me, but something always felt missing. The last time I seen her was a month ago, it was such a good day. We went to the lake and talked, we then went to the garden centre and went to the petting zoo, followed by a trip to the beach but it was closed. We then went back to hers but when we got back we both fell asleep and when we woke up it was time for me to leave. It was the last time I seen her and I never even got to really cuddle her, if I knew that was the last time I'd have not let her go. If I knew tonight it was going to be over I wouldn't have spent the last two weeks arguing with her, I would have tried to enjoy every second, smile more, tell her I love her, I haven't told her that in a long time, she stopped saying it.. So I just stopped for a second texted her and told her I don't want to leave with things I wish I had said, I want to say it one more time.. I love you. If your currently going through alot of arguments with your partner, stop for a second and ask yourself if it's worth it, even if they are the cause, agree to disagree and be happy. My heart feels like it's breaking, but I know deep down it's for the best. She broke promises, she never put me first and at one point she came close to cheating on me, despite it all, the arguing and the hurt, I wanted to be with her, sometimes it's just hard to let go. I feel empty, it has to get better right?
Melbufama Posted May 2, 2012 Posted May 2, 2012 We had been arguing alot because she was a flake when it came to our relationship. She did alot that if I had been on the outside looking in I would have told the person to leave her but I still i loved her. We kept fighting and I apologised for blaming her for most of our problems, even if that was how it felt, I had no right to make someone feel that way. She left tonight said she has feelings for me but they arnt as strong anymore, she doesn't want to feel like this anymore. What hurts more than her leaving is knowing we could have fixed our problems if she would just talk to me, let me in but she never did.. I handed over my whole heart.. Each time I tried to leave she asked me back and I went running because I just wanted her to love me the way I loved her, wanted her to want to be with me, but something always felt missing. The last time I seen her was a month ago, it was such a good day. We went to the lake and talked, we then went to the garden centre and went to the petting zoo, followed by a trip to the beach but it was closed. We then went back to hers but when we got back we both fell asleep and when we woke up it was time for me to leave. It was the last time I seen her and I never even got to really cuddle her, if I knew that was the last time I'd have not let her go. If I knew tonight it was going to be over I wouldn't have spent the last two weeks arguing with her, I would have tried to enjoy every second, smile more, tell her I love her, I haven't told her that in a long time, she stopped saying it.. So I just stopped for a second texted her and told her I don't want to leave with things I wish I had said, I want to say it one more time.. I love you. If your currently going through alot of arguments with your partner, stop for a second and ask yourself if it's worth it, even if they are the cause, agree to disagree and be happy. My heart feels like it's breaking, but I know deep down it's for the best. She broke promises, she never put me first and at one point she came close to cheating on me, despite it all, the arguing and the hurt, I wanted to be with her, sometimes it's just hard to let go. I feel empty, it has to get better right? If u need something to hold and love so badly, get urself an adorable puppy. Now about your ex, dood shes playing you, you know that. Do the routine NC permanently, date around with girls out of your comfort zone.
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