Chrisal23 Posted May 1, 2012 Posted May 1, 2012 (edited) So its been about a month since my ex broke up with me. Basically the reason she broke up with me was cause she was feeling bad and down since we argued a lot. I have to admit that I've changed in the sense of the way I treated her. But she doubted me and never trusted me. Each week she would at least once check my phone politely when someone texted but it still felt awkward. She finally had enough and called me crying telling me that she told her mom. Her mom didn't like the fact the we broke up frequently. Honestly I think that her mom though I was using her daughter, but in the end I was the one that was being dumped and came back to her. Anyways I've been getting a little better after NC. I still love her but I have some type of anger towards her as well. Right now I'm off to work in a little but I had this though in my head. She usually broke up with me mad or upset, but this time she called me crying saying she told her mom (her mom said if we kept breaking up she would make sure we wouldn't see each other no more). After she hung up within an hour she texted me saying she couldn't take it anymore and that she thought I was hanging out with other girls behind her back(I honestly wasn't). Someone please cheer me up, NC is killing me on days like this one. I admit I sometimes snap, when I'm really angry(nothing too crazy but definitively something I will work on. ) It's hard for me to say the word "NO" but I am also practicing with this. Some of the things I regret is arguing a lot and taking arguments too seriously. In the end I just wanted to see her happy and make her feel special. I wanted to be with this girl always but it was hard, and she often said how I didn't make her feel special. Yet she told me how other boys said things to her that made her feel good.... Edited May 1, 2012 by Chrisal23
Philosoraptor Posted May 1, 2012 Posted May 1, 2012 You need to accept that you wern't what she wanted in the end. It's ok and it doesn't make you not awesome or anyone else better than you, just a better fit. Continue to heal and find yourself someone who fits you better.
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