everything happens for a reason

[uptowngurlie01]

A month ago tonight I would never have seen this coming. When I think back to August and the past 8 months, I was happy. Everyone including myself thought that we were perfect together. It felt right and for the first time in my whole life I had no doubts: because when you know, you know. Maybe I was in a dream world, sucked up way too much in the future and planning my life with him in my head. But that was just it, I never felt anything close to what I felt for him in my life and I honestly wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. There was one doubt in my mind though. I always remember feeling that I loved him more than he loved me. Call me crazy, and hell I thought I was, which is why I wrote it off and trusted him. So a month ago tomorrow for the first time in my life my heart was shattered in a million pieces. My world completely turned upside down in a matter of five minutes. I’m pretty sure I’ve never experienced shock like that night. He told me he never loved me. He told me he had no feelings at all left for me. But how could that be possible? Nothing? How could someone feel so little when I felt so much. Nothing made sense, and I don’t think I will ever completely understand. But one thing I know is that night all I saw was darkness and now there’s finally a light. I’ve cried every single day about him up until a few days ago. Picture this- I’m at work, slit my wrist open on glass, get driven to the ER and have a revelation while getting stitched up. 5 stitches= no big deal but to me it changed my life. Life is precious and way too short to cry for a whole month, 30 days, 720 hours, 43,200 minutes, and 2,592,000 seconds that I will never get back. Life happens for a reason and this is something that I always believed. I learned from him to take life one day at a time, to never make anyone my world but to have them enhance it, to never trust anyone over my gut, and to never make a man the center of my own happiness. I love my life and I couldn’t ask for anything else. I know one day I’ll find the right guy and I promise that no matter what I will never settle. So until then- here’s to loving life and making every moment count 

[january2011]

I'm glad you're feeling better now. Though am sorry that you had to go through such a traumatic experience to get to this point.

 

Good luck with your continued healing.

[faceit]

You will find the right person! Something someone once told me, "Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment," I'm taking it day by day as well. Crying just makes you human, I did it yesterday.

 

Please take good care of yourself.

[sweetheart5381]

Sorry to hear that you have experienced such a harsh reality.

 

Simply put, some people just suck. I mean, they literally use you for your love and do not return it. Don't let them take away your spirit, they don't deserve it.

 

I have alot of respect for you because you can really see the "silver lining" and take something good from your experience rather than living in the darkness. You show alot of courage and tenacity. Kudos.

 

Please get the help you need to put this b/u behind you and never look back.

 

All the best.

[xxSRMxx]

A month ago tonight I would never have seen this coming. When I think back to August and the past 8 months, I was happy. Everyone including myself thought that we were perfect together. It felt right and for the first time in my whole life I had no doubts: because when you know, you know. Maybe I was in a dream world, sucked up way too much in the future and planning my life with him in my head. But that was just it, I never felt anything close to what I felt for him in my life and I honestly wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. There was one doubt in my mind though. I always remember feeling that I loved him more than he loved me. Call me crazy, and hell I thought I was, which is why I wrote it off and trusted him. So a month ago tomorrow for the first time in my life my heart was shattered in a million pieces. My world completely turned upside down in a matter of five minutes. I’m pretty sure I’ve never experienced shock like that night. He told me he never loved me. He told me he had no feelings at all left for me. But how could that be possible? Nothing? How could someone feel so little when I felt so much. Nothing made sense, and I don’t think I will ever completely understand. But one thing I know is that night all I saw was darkness and now there’s finally a light. I’ve cried every single day about him up until a few days ago. Picture this- I’m at work, slit my wrist open on glass, get driven to the ER and have a revelation while getting stitched up. 5 stitches= no big deal but to me it changed my life. Life is precious and way too short to cry for a whole month, 30 days, 720 hours, 43,200 minutes, and 2,592,000 seconds that I will never get back. Life happens for a reason and this is something that I always believed. I learned from him to take life one day at a time, to never make anyone my world but to have them enhance it, to never trust anyone over my gut, and to never make a man the center of my own happiness. I love my life and I couldn’t ask for anything else. I know one day I’ll find the right guy and I promise that no matter what I will never settle. So until then- here’s to loving life and making every moment count 

 

Wow your story sounds exactly like mine..... I planned everything with this guy, I thought we were going to go the distance, my parents did, his did, and then 3 weeks ago he flipped and said he didnt love me anymore.

 

Ive dealt with the break up horribly, almost a bit of a psycho too. we no longer speak. Ive cried every single day... I hope one day I get my revelation too.

 

Well done for starting to heal...

[shayla]

A month ago tonight I would never have seen this coming. When I think back to August and the past 8 months, I was happy. Everyone including myself thought that we were perfect together. It felt right and for the first time in my whole life I had no doubts: because when you know, you know. Maybe I was in a dream world, sucked up way too much in the future and planning my life with him in my head. But that was just it, I never felt anything close to what I felt for him in my life and I honestly wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. There was one doubt in my mind though. I always remember feeling that I loved him more than he loved me. Call me crazy, and hell I thought I was, which is why I wrote it off and trusted him. So a month ago tomorrow for the first time in my life my heart was shattered in a million pieces. My world completely turned upside down in a matter of five minutes. I’m pretty sure I’ve never experienced shock like that night. He told me he never loved me. He told me he had no feelings at all left for me. But how could that be possible? Nothing? How could someone feel so little when I felt so much. Nothing made sense, and I don’t think I will ever completely understand. But one thing I know is that night all I saw was darkness and now there’s finally a light. I’ve cried every single day about him up until a few days ago. Picture this- I’m at work, slit my wrist open on glass, get driven to the ER and have a revelation while getting stitched up. 5 stitches= no big deal but to me it changed my life. Life is precious and way too short to cry for a whole month, 30 days, 720 hours, 43,200 minutes, and 2,592,000 seconds that I will never get back. Life happens for a reason and this is something that I always believed. I learned from him to take life one day at a time, to never make anyone my world but to have them enhance it, to never trust anyone over my gut, and to never make a man the center of my own happiness. I love my life and I couldn’t ask for anything else. I know one day I’ll find the right guy and I promise that no matter what I will never settle. So until then- here’s to loving life and making every moment count 

 

 

Like? No honey, I love the hel* outt this post!!!!

[tears_in_rain]

Many of us never see it coming. Being blindsided with such an emotional blow is devastating. Our world crumbles around us in a matter of minutes or days. I feel for you when you say the last few months I was happy. I felt exactly the same until the bomb dropped and bang there goes your idea of a happy life / relationship. You question the love you knew was there but now appears to have evaporated.

 

"take life one day at a time, to never make anyone my world but to have them enhance it, to never trust anyone over my gut, and to never make a man (someone) the center of my own happiness." SPOT ON !

 

Remember what you have learnt from this and definitely don't settle for anything less than you deserve. Even if you have to make a few mistakes along the way.

[5-F Dawg]

thats awesome! im glad your so positive and it gives me sorta motovation to get thru the crap im going thru!

 

your so right about you being the only one who can make you happy and that anyone who enters it can is only there to enhance it. GO YOU!!! and i wish you well with your healing process...you never know what the future beholds!