xxSRMxx Posted April 16, 2012 Posted April 16, 2012 Right i broke NC again today! my talk with my counsellor made me wanna get things off my chest to my ex so i (stupidly) felt the need to break NC. It didnt go well (as expected) he said im not doing myself any favours, not even giving him the opportunity to miss me and basically dismissed me like a peice of trash. when i got off the phone something clicked in me, Ive spent ten days in my bedroom crying, suicidal thoughts etc. He hasnt. Ive spent times trying to text him and call him. He hasnt. Instead hes kept busy, surrounded himself with his friends, Ive isolated myself. so now its time to do the same as him seeing as he seems to be getting on so well! Ive had enough, Ive had enough of crying, Ive had enough of wondering about what he said, she said what i could do right. WHY am i continually degrading myself by calling him??? HAD ENOUGH!!! Tommorow I am booking a flight to tenerife (i used to live there when i was 21) to go and see my friend, some sun, sea and sand will do me the world of good. Im going for a long weekend, I said i would be in touch with my ex in a couple of weeks (so far failed) Im not gonna even call him when I get home. Im sick of him. Need to mend my broken heart, and sitting here just isnt going to do it anymore.
BewitchedandBothered Posted April 16, 2012 Posted April 16, 2012 Right i broke NC again today! my talk with my counsellor made me wanna get things off my chest to my ex so i (stupidly) felt the need to break NC. It didnt go well (as expected) he said im not doing myself any favours, not even giving him the opportunity to miss me and basically dismissed me like a peice of trash. when i got off the phone something clicked in me, Ive spent ten days in my bedroom crying, suicidal thoughts etc. He hasnt. Ive spent times trying to text him and call him. He hasnt. Instead hes kept busy, surrounded himself with his friends, Ive isolated myself. so now its time to do the same as him seeing as he seems to be getting on so well! Ive had enough, Ive had enough of crying, Ive had enough of wondering about what he said, she said what i could do right. WHY am i continually degrading myself by calling him??? HAD ENOUGH!!! Tommorow I am booking a flight to tenerife (i used to live there when i was 21) to go and see my friend, some sun, sea and sand will do me the world of good. Im going for a long weekend, I said i would be in touch with my ex in a couple of weeks (so far failed) Im not gonna even call him when I get home. Im sick of him. Need to mend my broken heart, and sitting here just isnt going to do it anymore. ...I just want to hit you with a giant pillow right now....Shaking my head....HE has moved on...Everytime you go one step up, you go 10 steps back...why would you tell your ex you would be in touch and why does he keep picking up knowing it's you? He's just as bad. Sorry, but he is. Know your self worth.
Author xxSRMxx Posted April 16, 2012 Author Posted April 16, 2012 I know, part of me hopes that I have no desire to call him in a couple of weeks if im honest. Thats the problem, i dont know my self worth!
BewitchedandBothered Posted April 16, 2012 Posted April 16, 2012 I know, part of me hopes that I have no desire to call him in a couple of weeks if im honest. Thats the problem, i dont know my self worth! You need to rid yourself of that desire to contact him....You KNOW what the outcome will be and it won't change. You are better than this. You just have to let yourself heal and you will see that. Trust me. Think about it another way....He must be nuts to not want to be with you...And you don't want a nutcase on your hands, right;) He let you go; it's his problem, not yours. Now chin up and get to healing. Again...You already know what it would do to you to call him. He will keep rejecting you. How much of that can you take? 1
Author xxSRMxx Posted April 17, 2012 Author Posted April 17, 2012 You need to rid yourself of that desire to contact him....You KNOW what the outcome will be and it won't change. You are better than this. You just have to let yourself heal and you will see that. Trust me. Think about it another way....He must be nuts to not want to be with you...And you don't want a nutcase on your hands, right;) He let you go; it's his problem, not yours. Now chin up and get to healing. Again...You already know what it would do to you to call him. He will keep rejecting you. How much of that can you take? How do you do it lady?! x
Mr Scorpio Posted April 17, 2012 Posted April 17, 2012 Wow. I won't criticize. I can't really criticize giving my lack of dating history. What I can offer you is insight. I waited for my ex -- for six years -- before she finally gave me a chance. And even then she was ready to dump me 2 years later if I didn't propose by the 27 month mark. If you want to waste "prime dating years" like I did that is your business. I hope you don't. You'll regret it. Trust me. Unless you have four arms, six eyes, and one breast, I think you can find another guy interested in you who will treat you much better.
Author xxSRMxx Posted April 17, 2012 Author Posted April 17, 2012 Well im 25 now, I thought i'd met someone who I was going to settle down with but obv im wrong. Im not doing the crying in my bed anymore though, I cant do it, and contacting him? after the crap he gave me today he can **** off!! I also find that I get ''personal strength'' at weird times of the day...In the morning im really bad, I get okay by the afternoon...Then go weak around 5pm and then around this time i get really strong and think F U! Im back at college and work next week, I have 7 weeks left of my course so I need to throw myself into that, I also have my long weekend abroad...where I will probably return back after college for the whole summer to work... Im sick and tired of this now. He called me weak on the phone!! F him.
Mr Scorpio Posted April 17, 2012 Posted April 17, 2012 He called me weak on the phone!! F him. Then focus on proving him wrong.
Author xxSRMxx Posted April 17, 2012 Author Posted April 17, 2012 Thats exactly what I thought! Then he texed me saying ''for once in your life, help yourself'' d**k
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