xxSRMxx Posted April 15, 2012 Posted April 15, 2012 Just tried to distract myself from thinking about my ex and no contact etc. Was chopping some garlic and it reminded me of him because i was chopping garlic at his the other day (i know!) so thought i would vent on here a little bit. I dont know what this NC will bring for us, maybe i will realise i dont ever need to talk to him again and that im okay, maybe itll make me think I really need this man back in my life. Either way. Ive said ill speak to him when im ready, I dont want to lose him as a friend, im just not ready for ''friends'' right now. Im going to the drs tommorow for some anti d's, I really didnt wanna go down that route but i need a little help. I also have therapy tommorow. I just cant stop thinking about the way I was..... I need to learn to love myself, he knows this, I know this. Yet i feel guilty for the mistakes I made in the relationship due to my own insecurities, he wants me to work on myself, he says hes always here to talk to when im ready. Im glad we are not fighting, exchanging bad words about each other. I drive myself crazy with thoughts of him getting to know another girl, giving his love to her. This may well happen, it may not. I dont know what the future brings, and that scares me.
favoritepills Posted April 15, 2012 Posted April 15, 2012 I know how you feel. It really is the little things that get to you, tiny reminders of what you've lost. Like, I want to do some retail therapy, but that'll remind me of how great of a shopping buddy he was -- he had interesting opinions on things, I liked to model the clothes for him and see his reactions. But yes, NC is the way to go. I just wish it was easier.
BewitchedandBothered Posted April 15, 2012 Posted April 15, 2012 Just tried to distract myself from thinking about my ex and no contact etc. Was chopping some garlic and it reminded me of him because i was chopping garlic at his the other day (i know!) so thought i would vent on here a little bit. I dont know what this NC will bring for us, maybe i will realise i dont ever need to talk to him again and that im okay, maybe itll make me think I really need this man back in my life. Either way. Ive said ill speak to him when im ready, I dont want to lose him as a friend, im just not ready for ''friends'' right now. Im going to the drs tommorow for some anti d's, I really didnt wanna go down that route but i need a little help. I also have therapy tommorow. I just cant stop thinking about the way I was..... I need to learn to love myself, he knows this, I know this. Yet i feel guilty for the mistakes I made in the relationship due to my own insecurities, he wants me to work on myself, he says hes always here to talk to when im ready. Im glad we are not fighting, exchanging bad words about each other. I drive myself crazy with thoughts of him getting to know another girl, giving his love to her. This may well happen, it may not. I dont know what the future brings, and that scares me. You weren't born with him epoxied to your side; you can certainly survive without him and you certainly don't NEED him!!!! Garlic reminds me of the Food Network===try to shift the memory a little bit and watch Paula Deen cook:) Friends down the road? Riiiiiiiiight.....Way to cushion the blow, dude. Be careful of the anti d's. I gained a lot of weight from them and when I weaned off them, withdrawal was awful. And my problems were right there waiting for me when the stuff was out of my system. Talk to a cognitive behavioural therapist===there is no cure all or magic pill. All our ex's meet someone new and so shall we!!!! Think of YOU being free, think of healing and think of all the wonderful things waiting for you, if you just let it happen; let life happen. He is stifling your creative flow.
Mr Scorpio Posted April 16, 2012 Posted April 16, 2012 I dont know what the future brings, and that scares me. You and me both kid. You and me both.
dsw31 Posted April 16, 2012 Posted April 16, 2012 Oh yeah...the small things I think of my ex with everything I do. Even if I fart, I think of him cause he was the king of farting!Lol Every time I go to a food store,I think of our Sunday dinners. Everytime I watch tv-every show & commercial reminds me of him Everytime I shop for clothes-I think of buying something he would like Everytime I drive,I see cars that look like his I could go on & on but,you guys know how it is.This is awful!!
Mr Scorpio Posted April 16, 2012 Posted April 16, 2012 I just cannot see a way out The way out of fearing about the uncertainty of the future? IMO, it is identifying what you want you future to look like. Then, develop a plan to get you there. Then, develop a back-up plan, and maybe a back-up-back-up plan. Then, work on your plan. If nothing else, you'll be focusing on working towards what you want. My understanding is that you are still pretty young? Therefore, you have more time for all of these steps.
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