thatmanoverthere Posted April 9, 2012 Posted April 9, 2012 It's cliche I know, but I'm your average guy. I don't do MMA or UFC, I'm not ripped, I don't have alot of money or a high paying job, and for the love of god I couldn't strike up a conversation that would last five minutes if my life depended on it. Maybe I'm wrong. Let's just say I'm not your "average" guy. Average guy has some idea of who this band is, what the heck is going on with American this or dancing with them. Average guy has a show he could talk to you about for ages, average guy is capable of expressing himself without feeling like no one has a clue of what he's even trying to grasp at with his limited vocabulary. Not trying to throw a pitty party, but i think when it comes to rating myself from one to ten and having seven as average, I think I would be like a six. I'm telling you this because I need an outlet. I can talk to you because this is the internet, and if there is one thing I've learned in all my years is that the internet is not to be trusted, so who better to tell all your dark secerts too? No one would believe you, and if they did and told their friends or loved ones they just assume your making it up or I'm making it up, leaving you with nothing but a feeling of frustration. So yes internet website i've choosen you because in all honestly I can't see myself talking to other people without them butting in and giving me their two cents. I know i should just use the dam journal, but i want these words to be seen, i want people to know i feel this way even if you have no clue as to who i am. I want people to see just how lonely i've become, how much of an outsider i truly picture myself to be. I want to be able to imagine even if i know it is fleeting and stupid, that someone out there in this big wide world can understand someone without having to set eyes on them, without hearing their voice or seeing their face. I want a lover, and a friend. I want my 'SoulMate'.
cerridwen Posted April 9, 2012 Posted April 9, 2012 What's good about you? Are you kind-hearted? Loyal to friends and family? You seem sensitive and romantic, those are two good things. What else?
nowwhatnow Posted April 12, 2012 Posted April 12, 2012 honestly, a lot of times a read threads and cannot connect to the way someone is writing a question, comment, or response. but this honestly just encompasses everything i feel, fear, and hope for. i could not have said it any better myself. i wish you only the best of luck and the happiest things. this made my otherwise bland day much better, and for this i thank you.
crazylove Posted April 12, 2012 Posted April 12, 2012 I'm very sorry to hear about your loneliness. You sound like a kind and caring person, and come across well in your post. This is a good place to come to vent and have people listen:) PS Welcome to LS!
lady_jadie Posted April 12, 2012 Posted April 12, 2012 hi that guy I feel like this all the time too. alone,, scared, even if people reach out to me or are nice to me i feel that they're only doing it for some other reason. I think most people want their soulmate, and for me at least, possibly more painfully, I think I had my chance with mine and f*d it up, ruining it forever. At least yours could be on their way to you, think of it like that. And the internet is better than a journal. There's usually someone out here who'll talk back and offer support, even if it's just a "sorry to hear you feel like that" or an "I hear you, buddy" this place has a lot of very kindhearted, honest, feeling, real people. x
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