xxSRMxx Posted April 7, 2012 Posted April 7, 2012 Well this is a shock, i NEVER thought id come back to LS.. This site has helped me so many times that I feel drawn to post again while I go through losing my boyfriend. Qick background before i start, two years ago I got involved with a married man and ended things, I havent had contact with my ex MM for around 15 months now..... About 8 months ago I met my current boyfriend (well ex now) my boyfriend is charming, honest, hard working and beautiful inside and out, and I have COMPLETELY ****ed up here.. I spent most of the relationship feeling insecure, convinced he'd cheat and generally being an ass. I spent the first few days of our relationship being pretty tearful (in private) because i just could NOT believe how happy I felt! and i think thats where the problems started, I would purposely check his fb and wind myself up over ex girls, I had absoluetly no reason to do it, self destruct button springs to mind?? Dont get me wrong, I havent been a terrible girlfriend, most of the time we have been happy, thursday night we had a bit of an argument and the next day he kind of just lost it, said he wants to be alone, apologised for me, said he hopes im happy. I asked him that if i worked on myself (cus lets face it, thats what I need to do) then could i have the chance to make things upto him? he said yes. I am in a right state, I just cannot believe the way I have behaved, i partly think because i had an affair with a married man it just kind of gave me a bad take on relationships. I miss him, its easter weekend and he was meant to be coming to mine for dinner with all my family. instead im sat in my bedroom in tears kicking myself, Im not a bad person and i love him with all my heart any tips to get through this horrible period....
rAFC Posted April 7, 2012 Posted April 7, 2012 You know what you did wrong and you know what you have to do. Take this time to seriously think about your personal issues and work on them! If you do this, you might get him back, or at least be better prepared for your next relationship. If you spend this time feeling sorry for yourself you won't solve anything. The choice is yours, I hope you choose wisely.
Author xxSRMxx Posted April 8, 2012 Author Posted April 8, 2012 Definately feel like I have hit rock bottom today..... its easter sunday and he was meant to be coming round today for dinner with the family. cant even stomach food, spoke to him today, he said he was fine but that he didnt wanna talk to anybody right now. Obv hes hurting, just miss him so much.
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