dsw31 Posted April 7, 2012 Posted April 7, 2012 (edited) I spent my Friday night all alone in my car, driving around aimlessly,parking in 24 hour store parking lots, reading Loveshack posts,listening to music & occasionally bursting out into tears. I smoked pot about 20 times in those 5 hours. I drove by my ex's house around midnight to see if his car was there (it was) Continued to be a lonely pathetic loser, smoked some more & then drove past his house again, around 4am. His car had been moved so, I know he drove past my house too.Made me feel so much better! Omg-I am such a weak pathetic excuse for a person.I bet no one can top that! Someone just slap me now! Edited April 7, 2012 by dsw31
Toru Posted April 7, 2012 Posted April 7, 2012 Dude we've all been there. I'm not going to say you should man up and forget about her and just get on with your life. You're allowed to have moments like these. For me they're part of the process. But remember that you are still a person. With qualities, warmth and love to share with the world. Don't deprive the world of what you have to offer. Hurt, but also know you won't be hurting like this forever. 1
TaraMaiden Posted April 7, 2012 Posted April 7, 2012 Dude we've all been there. I'm not going to say you should man up and forget about him and just get on with your life. You're allowed to have moments like these. For me they're part of the process. But remember that you are still a person. With qualities, warmth and love to share with the world. Don't deprive the world of what you have to offer. Hurt, but also know you won't be hurting like this forever. Just corrected that for you... Otherwise, I'm with you on it all....
darkmoon Posted April 7, 2012 Posted April 7, 2012 pot is weakening you, try none unless with fun ppl, not to smoke brood with alone, please try none for two weeks ditto booze they play havoc on a vulnerable soul
stitch702 Posted April 7, 2012 Posted April 7, 2012 Listen to what everyone has said. You are NOT weak. We've all been there. You are simply a human being who has feelings. You are not pathetic as you say you are, you may be acting as you feel right now, but that's normal in time you will see the light of things...
mike588 Posted April 7, 2012 Posted April 7, 2012 I didn't drive by my ex.s house but I drank myself silly to reduce the pain and to sleep then felt worse the next day...My phone NEVER left my side and if it was waterproof I'd of taken it in the shower with me not to miss her call! It's ok to do those things and to feel that way...We've all been there/are there and like a poster said it just part of the healing process...you'll be ok..just give it more time...your not a pathetic loser!
Author dsw31 Posted April 7, 2012 Author Posted April 7, 2012 I didn't drive by my ex.s house but I drank myself silly to reduce the pain and to sleep then felt worse the next day...My phone NEVER left my side and if it was waterproof I'd of taken it in the shower with me not to miss her call! It's ok to do those things and to feel that way...We've all been there/are there and like a poster said it just part of the healing process...you'll be ok..just give it more time...your not a pathetic loser! Thanks for the support everyone but, How long will I be like this?I just don't think it's going to get any better! We broke up last year,a 4 month split,and I was just as miserable every single day! I have tried bettering myself,dating others,working out, nothing helps.I feel like he is the ONLY one I will ever want to be with.I think I am too picky.I have lots of guys who would want to date me but,I don't want anyone else.I can't understand how my ex would want anyone else.This is horrible! I also feel regret because I made a big mistake in our relationship & I feel sorry for myself because even though I am 31 years old,he was only my 2nd relationship.(had another 11 year relationship before him)I feel like I wish I learned these mistakes in my 20's.I am getting to the age where I feel like if I don't meet Mr right soon, I won't be able to have kids.I want to be a mother so bad! I wanted him to be the father.
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