brneyedgrl Posted April 4, 2012 Posted April 4, 2012 I go from being sad to depressed and now I'm angry. I'm angry at the situation. I'm angry at him for waltzing back into my life and disappearing again. I'm angry that I let him. I'm angry that I love him so much. I'm angry that I know he loves me but can't bring himself to control the depression and anxiety. I'm angry that I want answers even though they won't do a thing for my peace of mind. I'm angry that a few weeks ago he wanted to marry me and bought a ring then all the sudden he's gone. I'm angry that this doesn't shock me. Most of all I'm angry that once again, after already giving him 6 years of my life, he consumes my thoughts and makes my confidence in future men I might date, falter. I was doing so well this past year without him in my life, but he was always always in my thoughts. I doubt that will ever go away and I'm angry about this too.
Exit Posted April 4, 2012 Posted April 4, 2012 I kinda just hit the same stage of my situation, took me tooo long to get to the anger stage and now that I'm there, some of the toxic emotion that has come bubbling up to the surface has surprised even me.
CopingGal Posted April 4, 2012 Posted April 4, 2012 I have said things to my ex in emails that I have never said to anyone else....horrible things. I am a very, very nice person, but when it comes to him, I say terrible, terrible things. I hate that the things he did make me enraged. But I'm working on it.
BewitchedandBothered Posted April 4, 2012 Posted April 4, 2012 I have said things to my ex in emails that I have never said to anyone else....horrible things. I am a very, very nice person, but when it comes to him, I say terrible, terrible things. I hate that the things he did make me enraged. But I'm working on it. A jerk will bring out the ugly in someone, though. During a heated argument which my ex started as usual *(he seemed to get off on making me as angry as possible), he said horrid and cruel things to me, soI gave it right back to him. I didn't like myself when I was with him. Guys like that are pure garbage.
BewitchedandBothered Posted April 4, 2012 Posted April 4, 2012 I go from being sad to depressed and now I'm angry. I'm angry at the situation. I'm angry at him for waltzing back into my life and disappearing again. I'm angry that I let him. I'm angry that I love him so much. I'm angry that I know he loves me but can't bring himself to control the depression and anxiety. I'm angry that I want answers even though they won't do a thing for my peace of mind. I'm angry that a few weeks ago he wanted to marry me and bought a ring then all the sudden he's gone. I'm angry that this doesn't shock me. Most of all I'm angry that once again, after already giving him 6 years of my life, he consumes my thoughts and makes my confidence in future men I might date, falter. I was doing so well this past year without him in my life, but he was always always in my thoughts. I doubt that will ever go away and I'm angry about this too. Trust me when I say, it's natural to be angry, but try your best not to let that consume you. It will give you headaches and weigh you down. It robs you of your energy. I PROMISE, this is not forever. I am now in a place where I am feeling indifferent, and this guy was extremely abusive, loved playing mind games and now after treating me like crap, goes on his merry way, unscathed, to worship a new woman. Trust me, I held onto anger and bitterness and was angry with myself for allowing it to happen. I have learned from this experience that I am way better than this, a good loving person who was a target for a man with a miserable existence. Know you are a good and loving person, that you loved before and you will again===but now you know about red flags and what to look for, and how you should be treated. You can also take from this experience a way to help others who are going through it.
dsw31 Posted April 4, 2012 Posted April 4, 2012 I go from being sad to depressed and now I'm angry. I'm angry at the situation. I'm angry at him for waltzing back into my life and disappearing again. I'm angry that I let him. I'm angry that I love him so much. I'm angry that I know he loves me but can't bring himself to control the depression and anxiety. I'm angry that I want answers even though they won't do a thing for my peace of mind. I'm angry that a few weeks ago he wanted to marry me and bought a ring then all the sudden he's gone. I'm angry that this doesn't shock me. Most of all I'm angry that once again, after already giving him 6 years of my life, he consumes my thoughts and makes my confidence in future men I might date, falter. I was doing so well this past year without him in my life, but he was always always in my thoughts. I doubt that will ever go away and I'm angry about this too. I'm in an angry stage too! It's totally helping me get over my ex (atleast for now).I actually hope I stay in the anger stage forever with him! The grieving stages are different for everyone.Just know it's totally normal, as long as you don't stay stuck for too long. I saw my ex yesterday & flipped him the bird! I really couldn't even help it! It was a reflex! Lol! Seriously though, just don't think all other men are the same.Everyone comes into our lives for a reason & he taught you alot,I'm sure. Your experience SHOULD have taught you what you're looking for AND not looking for in your next partner.Just keep your eyes open next time for red flags & ALWAYS trust your gut! I used to question my gut but,it is the most accurate way of knowing if something is not right. Oh yeah- don't worry about getting answers from him. I'm sure he doesn't really know all the answers anyway & trust me- it's not you! It's HIM! Best of luck to you & keep posting here as much as you need to!
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