lwfewf Posted April 3, 2012 Posted April 3, 2012 i made a terrible terrible mistake. i was in a longterm relationship. like 8 yrs long. along the way, i developed a crush for this other girl. when i came to know my special feelings for this other girl.. i decided to tell my ex.. i told her i needed time to get over the girl.. i told her that i would never lie when i said i love her.. i told her i just need to sort myself out before i could love her 100% again. i never wanted to shortchange her. she was the best person on earth. she agreed. she said she'd wait. but she didnt wait long enough i guess. it took me an extremely long time to get over the other girl. but i couldnt have just left her to fend for herself then because it was an important period for her in life and i was in the role of a mentor and guardian. it took me one month after my ex broke up with me, to fully let go of my feelings of this other girl. when i went crawling back begging forgiveness and begging my ex to come back to me, she was happily reattached. i lost my first love. i lost what i once considered true love. i have always believed that when i love someone i will love them forever. because that is what love is meant to be. while i told my ex everytime she asked that i am not lying when i said i love her. when i said my love was forever. i never once said i loved the other girl. i just said i had a soft spot for her. because to me, love is always for just that one special person. how can i love again. everything seems so bleak. who can i trust to give my special love to again. or am i doomed to be alone for eternity. im still very young. everyone thinks i should just move on. but what am i to do. when i fall in love, it is forever. i think ive screwed myself over unless i can find a girl who is willing to accept that my love for my ex will never die. and still love me for that. i think im a failure of a guy.
lostconfidence Posted April 3, 2012 Posted April 3, 2012 mate i feel your pain. this is the 3rd bird that has adored me that i have ruined the last one being the most absulote perfect girl. she wouldv doen anything for me and she did.i pick her up and droped her when i felt like it. now she is with some1 else and my heart is broken i am broken... but all i can say is someday it will get better.. chin up matey
Philosoraptor Posted April 3, 2012 Posted April 3, 2012 You need time alone right now to figure yourself out. When you are ready to give your heart over again you will know. Many people here believe when they are in pain that they will never be able to love again or that romantic love they had for their ex will never fade. It does, it becomes a different type of love and adoration. You just need to give yourself time and focus on who you want to be and where to go from here.
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