baaron Posted March 31, 2012 Posted March 31, 2012 (edited) Ive read about a million of these forums and posts and ive finally figured it was about time for me to put one up. So heres the deal. sorry but this is going to be very long to explain. Me and my ex were together for about 4 years with almost no holding back. We were completely in love, knew everything about each other and were the closest people in the world (probably just like what everyone else feels like) She litteraly changed my life (helped me fix a lifetime problem with my parents divorce) we loved each other so much that it seemed we couldnt spend enough time together. So when i had to move away of course we got upset i bought her a webcam but i had no internet i texted her and called her as much as i could. things seemed fine other than the fact she seemed lonely without me. I went to see her during christmas break for a trip to chicago with her and her dad. we got along great in fact even better than before. It was like nothing had changed we were stilll as strong as lovers could be. i only got to see her for 3 days tho. when i left i told her not to get upset cuz id be back soon kissed her forehead told her itd be alright... anyways i get back to were i live now and things are back to how they were always saying i miss you and i love you. Then valentines day comes around. i make her a letter and picture and send it to her she loves it is all excited for it and things are great. but then she stops talking to me altogether i ask her" whats wrong "and she says" i just need space" i later realize/ find out that one of our close friends (that i always thought if my girlfriend would leave me for it would be him) had kissed her. She had been making new friends and being happier and he was one of them that she now constantly hanged out with. It came to the point were they were hanging out for 5 hours each day just "talking" in her room. well during one of these he kissed her and she told me she wasnt sure about things anymore. i tried to be th good guy and tell her we could try the single thing if she thought she needed it ( i felt like absolute ****) a week later she posts that shes now dateing him. i had to defriend her fb because i got to hear about how her new friends love the relationship and how they get to go out and see each other every F*****G day. it quickly build into a "i trust him 100%" type of relationship and im thought of as the stalker. i tried NC several times at the most for a week each, but i always crack on the weekends. I know how NC is helping and it has but soon i found my this guys ex and started talking (big mistake) i heard about how he spedns everywakeing moment with her, overnight, blah blah confirmed all my fears. but hes also flirting (making out)with his exs. i make the other mistake of trying to explain this to my ex but she trusts him !00% and BLAH. THEN she finds out ive been talking with his ex thinks im pathetic a stalker and it goes horribly downhill from there. After all of this i still want her back, i understand i have to get over her but i cant. Im not lowering my standards am i? i just wanted to tell her that shes with someone thats cheating on her, and i didnt want her to get hurt. But maybe i shouldnt have tried to tell her. I dont know Im not the dramatic type and im knee deep in drama. I want to grab her and pull her out of all of this drama so we could be like we used to. I think shes changed tho now, shes never hated me like this or been so blind to the fact shes turning into a bitch before. Have i made this relationship unfixable? Could i go NC again and later fix it? Should i give up entirely? This girl was my life and now im in shreds, im beyond confused at what to do at this point. Edited March 31, 2012 by baaron
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