budley12 Posted March 31, 2012 Posted March 31, 2012 this week was a rough week for me. not sure why but I am really missing my ex tonight. Here I am sitting in my apartment eating oreos, watching tv, and reading every possible "how to move on, how to get ex back". Ive been on the couch since 3. I wish I could go out, but ive lost all my friends and feel so alone. Just looking for someone to talk to I guess. my ex is literally a 3minute walk away on campus and I want to go visit him. havnt seen him in 2months, but he is probably with his new toy and I wouldnt want to break 2months of NC just for him to ask "what are you doing here".
blindesided Posted March 31, 2012 Posted March 31, 2012 I had one of those days too - It took me until after noon to even get off the couch - I was reading this forum & wallowing in self pity. I would just sit an imagine him being out & flirting with his new girl - I think thats where NC could help - I think I can trick my mind soon to say that he & the new girl broke up & he is miserable. See if I was in contact & heard that he was still dating - well that would be much worse. Just tell yourself that - the new girl dumped him - or vice versa & he is missing you but has too much pride to contact you - you can run all kind of fantasies as long as you dont know anything for sure - once you break contact though - no more fantasizing - I know what its like too about friends. I have friends but for some reason when I am in a relationship - they are single - when I am single - they are in a relationship - we cant all seem to get it together. So I am sure they are getting tired of hearing the same ole story from me. Plus they are busy with their new relationships. Even though they would be supportive - sometimes its nice to talk to someone who is going through it at the same time. Come here if you need to talk - we are your new friends
Author budley12 Posted March 31, 2012 Author Posted March 31, 2012 thanks blindside. I feel bad posting on this forum multiple times a day over the past few days and I think I am getting more obsessed with my ex. I think that by me talking about him I still feel connected to him whereas as each day passed I am getting further and further. I try and focus on the thoughts of the new things I am doing which I wouldnt have gotten into before but it still doesnt help. My thoughts always jump back to my ex. I started playing video games again, started running again, am studying abroad in New Zealand next semester... When we were together I even started to give up dreams of my future geology career because there really arnt any geology jobs where we were planning on living. I hope that eventually I can focus on these things and one day realize that this path was a much better one than the path with my ex. But until I have this epiphany I feel that I will be stuck in this phase of hope, hurt, denial, and sadness.
blindesided Posted March 31, 2012 Posted March 31, 2012 It sounds like you have so much to look forward to! You are so young & very lucky to be studying in New Zeland soon - I am very jealous. Believe me - never give up your dreams for anyone! Take it from me - (not that I had a bad life by any means but) I married too young (I was 21) married for 17yrs & divorced recently. Have a beautiful son from it. I look back on my youth & wish I wouldve done so much more before settling down - I wuldve loved to travel more. I regret that now - trust me - its much harder to do now that I am repsonsible for another person. You are only responsible for you - never take that for granted! Dare to dream - you have your whole life ahead of you (ok now I am just quoting cliches - lol) I think the universe had another plan for you & gave you a wake up call to live for you - Imagine giving up an opportunity to study abroad for some guy - your 38yr old self (years from now) would be so mad at you! 1
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