sbradford2 Posted March 29, 2012 Posted March 29, 2012 Hello single mommys! I have been single for 8 months now. My kids father left back in July and since then I have managed to pull myself together and really started getting use to him not being around. For months I would even care about where he was or what he was doing. But lately I have been thinking of him so much and there's a part of me that really misses him. A couple of weeks after he left we kept in contact and he called me late one night and told me that no matter what woman he ends up with that I will always have his heart. Although sad at first, I started to feel empowered by our breakup. I have not put my life on hold nor have I had any interest of being with him. But now I have been thinking of him a little bit too much! I use to be able to go a whole week with only having a few thoughts of him. He was actually the last thing on my mind. Now I can't seem to get him off my mind. I have even been dreaming of him and I wake up sad. Sometimes I think about calling him but then I stop myself. Just this morning I thought about the day I realized that he had moved on with his life and it brought tears to my eyes. My stomach felt like it was balled up in a knot. How could I let myself feel this way again? I have come too far to feel this sadness again. I looked at my daughters this morning and thought about how beautifully they are growing and how he is missing out on all of it and how he left us with broken hearts when he left back in July. I dont want to feel this pain all over again. What am I thinking! I have to pull it together. I am needing advice. I have not heard from him since October of last year. He has not even called to ask how the kids are doing! How could I bring myself to have these feelings again? Has anyone ever experienced this?
budley12 Posted March 29, 2012 Posted March 29, 2012 im not in the exact same situation, but i too felt myself being fine "alone" without my ex for some periods of time, but then i have others where I am extremely down. We have been apart for 4months now, and NC of almost 8weeks. Our emotional roller coaster sucks! =( As for him not even seeing how his kids are doing is a shocker. I mean I am not a parent nor do I wish to be at this stage in my life, but I would think he would still check to see how they are doing.
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