gurr13r Posted March 28, 2012 Posted March 28, 2012 I was married and have two young children and that relationship went sour and finished, soon after I met a lovely girl and started seeing her, we were very happy for a while until my ex raised her head and started making trouble, I was so confused I thought I loved my ex again and started listening to my crazy thoughts, unfortunatly I acted on them and my girlfriend found out, my ex forewarded my emails to her, it didnt take long for me to come to my senses and realise I was being foolish. my girlfriend was kinda understanding and gave me another chance, unfortunatly my own circumstances were still very stressful, my exwife wouldnt allow me see the kids and I started drinking, im not a very nice drunk and get abusive, I take out my anger on others, I was mean to my gf on a few occasions, and on one night out I headbutted a guy and broke his nose (he was the brother of a guy my exwife cheated on me with) since this I have really cleaned up my act and am in a very good place in myself except for the fact my gf is now my ex gf, she says she cant trust me, and says she has developed feelings for her ex (who used to beat her, she thinks he has changed) I felt very afraid for her that she might go back to him and end up being physically hurt again, so I bombarded her with emails of apolagies and promises that I know I can keep. She is under alot of pressure with her ex (who she works with) college work (mature student with a thesis due) and me (the pining more recent ex) I have upset her quite alot, trying to get her to believe me... she thinks my exwife is always going to be a problem, even though we are getting a divorce. She says she is confused an I understand this only too well seeing as I had developed feelings for my ex too earlier in the relationship. i have initiated NC and am only on my third day, its proving to be very dificult though, I keep checking her facebook to see if there is any thing happening (I had her blocked but unblocked her) its a beautiful day outside but all I can think about is how I can make amends and get back with her, I do love her very much and see a future with her, she is the most amazing person I have ever met, when I was going through my bad patch I was wrapped up in myself and she felt unloved I miss her, she is the best friend I ever had...
Philosoraptor Posted March 29, 2012 Posted March 29, 2012 Well it looks like two rebounders met one another. You can't truly move on to another if you haven't moved away from the prior.
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